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Heart that I love YOU.. and I really mean it Now.. that I truly understand.. that I do really Love YOU.. Now.. I want to say it and tell YOU.. I need your Heart.. I want Your Heart because I want to be heard when I call your Name and YOU know who is the MAN calling your name because it is I who loves YOU and has been loving YOU till this day.. so Please.. when I call your name.. Please answer so that I can have YOUR HEART.. I need Your Heart.. why.. I want Your Heart so that I can Love you More and More.. I grow More as time goes by because it is the Only thing that is the Best I can do.. to tell YOU that I love YOU..I been looking at this Door.. I tried to knock on this Door.. I would even stand by this door.. from the Sun Set to Sun Rise.. I even saw the Stars and the Moon appears in the dark Sky.. I would look at the door.. I been asking for Your Heart.. I wanted to show you this Art Sketch Paper.. I drew a Heart on the Piece of paper.. wanting to show YOU.. wanted your Approval if does this Drawing of the Heart looks like Yours.. and I wanted the answers from your Words.. But No matter How many times I would knock on this Door.. I would hear YOUR voice inside this House.. but The door never opened for Me.. It broke My Heart.. ALL I ever wanted was YOUR answers that Does this Heart LOOKS like YOURS.. if YOU only told me that It is the drawing of Your Heart.. I was going to ask YOU a Question but that Question comes with asking a Favor from YOU.. and I wanted to ask.. If this Heart of drawing which I drew in my room thinking of YOU resembles Your Heart.. can YOU Please write YOUR NAME on this Piece of paper.. in the center of this Heart saying this is YOUR HEART.. and If you would of told me yes and Writes YOUR NAME.. I would ask you a Favor.. is it okay I can call Out your Name looking at this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper of Picture of Your Heart.. I want to call Out your Name and tell your Heart YOUR NAME and tell you that I love Your Name.. I will start with just loving Your Name and thinking of Your Name.. I would say.. can I love this Heart.. with Your Name in the center.. I can call out your Name.. every Night.. I would walk Out side.. I would turn and LOOK UP to the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and I will show the MOON the Piece of paper.. LOOK at this Heart.. Please say the Name of this Heart.. and I would open my mouth and say YOUR NAME before the MOON up there and say.. I love this Name.. and I love this Heart means I really Love YOU.. But.. I am looking at this Door.. the same Door.. and many months has passed by.. of course for a while I begin to think.. Maybe YOU are Not going to open this Door.. maybe it is My voice.. is it just too rusty for YOU to hear.. is it because I am knocking on this door so Much YOU just grew tired of this same person.. I would see the Figure in the Window and I know that YOU are inside this House.. I saw the figure of YOU.. and Yes.. I heard your voice too saying something.. I kept on knocking and knocking.. but YOU never answered.. YOU never opened the Door.. and YOU are wondering.. why did I come back.. why did I return back to the same DOOR which it never opened for Me.. I don't know.. and If you want an answer.. I just don't know why I keep on coming back to YOU.. even though the Door never opens for Me.. YOU are asking.. DO I ever give UP.. and I will tell YOU NO.. I never will give UP on Love.. especially when It comes on Loving YOU.. How can I give UP ON YOU.. I just will Not stop trying until YOU OPEN this door for me.. I would unfold the Piece of paper.. and I am looking at the Drawing of the Heart.. It has been a while since I looked at it but I do remember.. I would sit by the Door.. and turning away from the Door.. I would sit and cry.. I only wanted YOU to answer Me.. I only wanted to see if this Looks Like Your Heart.. why don't you answer.. I wanted to know does this LOOKS like your Heart.. so that at least I can tell this Piece of paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. that I love YOU.. that I want YOUR HEART.. and for ever can I just stand by this door and tell it by the door and YOU can hear me from the Inside when I am standing Out side.. How much I want to be with YOU.. but I need your Heart.. Please give me YOUR Heart and tell me that It looks like your Heart.. so that I know that I can start saying and telling YOU.. telling your Heart that I really Love YOU.. but why don't you answer the Door.. why don't you open the Door.. why don't you tell me that It does looks Like or resemble YOUR Heart.. Please tell me the truth.. give an answer to My Ear so I can hear you say something about this Piece of Paper.. that It is a Drawing of Your Heart.. I want to start loving YOU.. BUT I just can't love you until YOU tell me the answer.. I want to tell YOU and Love you so Bad.. why don't you answer.. why don't you tell me something.. or just anything.. and I would be sitting.. Looking at the Piece of Paper.. the Drawing of the Heart.. which I only drew of thinking of YOU.. all I want is YOU to say.. I needs to hear you tell me.. give me the approval that I needs to know that It looks Like your Heart.. as I am standing by the Door.. I am just thinking about the last time I came to this Door.. I was crying.. and It started to shower down the rain.. I do remember I would stand UP from sitting on the ground.. and I started to walk straight.. and I would walk and stop.. turning too look at the window.. I stood there.. hands holding the Piece of paper.. the Drawing of the Heart.. and I am getting Hit by the rain and I am looking at the paper.. as I see it getting wet by the rain and It would tear slowly and into halves It became.. and I would open my mouth wide crying in the rain.. ALL I wanted to know is does this Drawing looks Like your Heart.. why is it so Upsetting to me watching this Piece of paper tearing apart in front of the eyes.. and I started to feel getting more wetter as the rain would fall down on Me.. and I would be crying and crying.. looking at the window.. LOOK at this.. LOOK at the Art Sketch Paper.. I came all the way down here to show YOU but to ask YOU for one thing.. It is all about YOUR HEART.. why can't you answer Me.. why can't you tell me what is in your Heart.. all you do is open that door and ALL I wanted to hear yes or No.. but why did YOU Not answer the door.. and as I am getting more wet by the rain.. I hear the Thunder and flashes of lightening making sounds.. and ALL I wanted is a simple Yes or No.. but I wanted to hear the answer YES more than No.. I came here to ask just this One question and also had a Favor in Mind.. as I would wait for YOU to appear in the window.. I don't see you there.. and I would turn around and started to walk slowly.. My head looks down and My Heart.. it feels so Hurt.. it feels so Broken inside.. I can't even hear my Heart or feel my Heart any more.. I just can't feel it no more.. as I am standing here.. why do I feel so Sad all of a sudden.. was it because of last time painful experience I had going away.. walking away.. if It hurts this bad.. why did I come here again.. and I stood by the door.. I know that I won't hear YOU.. I know that YOU are Not going to open this Door.. even though I already Know.. WHY did I come.. and my two hands holding the sides of this Piece of paper.. and I am looking at the Drawing of a Heart and I would smile.. YOU are thinking I should of been frowning HUH.. NOPE.. because I am thinking of another way.. different method appear to me in my Heart and IN my Mind and I came with a new Plan and I know that It does NOT Matter if YOU don't open the Door.. Just don't open it for Me.. Please keep it locked and DO NOT even come out to see this Heart.. WHY.. I am going to tell YOU what I think of Your Heart.. I know that If YOU are standing on the Other Side.. YOU can hear Me.. that is a GOOD thing because as Long as YOU can hear My voice.. and Hear my words and Knows my Heart.. I know once it gets to YOU ON the Other side.. ONE day Your Heart can Open.. I believe that YOUR HEART may Not accept me Now.. But YOUR Heart can Hear and can understand when IT comes from MY Heart of How much I LOVE YOU.. I know you know what Love really Is.. If YOU are truly LOOKING and thinking of Love.. SO AM I.. I been trying to tell YOU many times what it means to Love YOU.. as Long as YOU can Hear ME from Where you are.. YOU can be standing or can be sitting.. if YOU can Hear me.. I know that is a GOOD thing.. it is when YOU tell me to Leave YOU alone and Get Lost.. that is when I have NO Chance to Love YOU.. but able to come here.. even the DOOR is still locked and YOU are not opening the Door.. I know who I love.. and I want to boldly claim my rights to Love YOU.. and I know you can hear me on the Other side.. behind this Locked DOOR.. I know you are inside.. I saw the figure on the window when I was coming back to this Door.. and I waved at YOU.. what got to my Heart.. YOU waved back.. that is when I knew.. DOOR can be locked all YOU want.. BUT it is Not going to stop me to tell YOU a story of what it means to really Love YOU.. as long as YOU can hear me and listen to the Stories I love sharing and telling YOU.. I know I will love YOU still and I would walk UP to the Door and I would stand by the Door.. and My Hand Hits the Door.. DOK DOK DOK DOK DOK.. and Hand Hits the Door again.. and I hear.. DOK DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I was about to hit the Door but why did YOU hit it back.. I see.. I know YOU hear me.. behind this Door.. I see that YOU are there.. and also I am here just to say.. I missed YOU and I love you too.. and I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can

I love YOU.. I asked you to love me.. I even told YOU that I love YOU.. you told me that you loved Me.. then why are you not getting this Picture.. YOU told me how much YOU loved the Moon.. Here is the Moon that YOU love.. I just want to give it back to YOU because YOU can hate me.. but I will always love YOU.. I will still love YOU until you know that I love YOU and that YOU know in your Heart that YOU love me too. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me

Waiting for me.. I would ask this Angel.. How can I be an Angel.. because I just want to be close to YOU.. even though I do not ask for your Love.. I am not asking YOU.. can YOU love me.. it is what is in my Heart.. who is the One loving YOU.. I am truly feeling like I am filled and Full just by loving YOU.. and the Angel would look at me.. if I become the An angel.. I can't ever be with YOU.. but can be Near YOU.. be close to YOU and Just love YOU from the Far.. from the distance just to be there and just to love YOU and Only thing I can do is miss YOU.. and I would ask the Angel.. am I able to share.. tell and write letters to YOU.. the Angel tells me.. I still can.. I can always love YOU.. and able to tell you.. express the Joy of loving YOU.. I do remember begging this Angel.. that I needed to borrow the two wings.. or if I can be an Angel instead.. as long as I can love YOU.. as long as I can write you Letters to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. so I made the Deal with Angel.. he is going to bring me two wings and gives to me as a Gift and I will become Your Angel.. the One who loves YOU from a far and from distance.. I do remember sitting by the desk.. pulling Out the White Sheet of Clean Paper.. grabbing a Pen and started to write YOU a Letter.. to tell YOU this.. I would say.. I am Your Angel.. Please do not be afraid of Me.. but to know how much I love YOU.. when I get close to the window and the Sun goes down and the Moon with the Stars comes UP the sky.. I would open the Window and stare into the Night.. just thinking of YOU.. just missing YOU always.. I do not want to miss you any more.. there is this Ache in my Heart.. there is this Pain in my soul.. looking into the Night.. Looking at the Moon.. I am watching the Moon looking at me.. and when I look at the Moon.. I think of YOU.. YOU keep on crossing my Mind.. I can feel this pain.. a sharp Pain because I want to be close to YOU.. When can I see YOU.. When can I come close to YOU and reveal to YOU that It is Me who be loving you the Most.. would you please let me come close.. so that I don't have to keep on missing YOU.. I feel like I needs to make this Move first.. that I needs to get close.. even though I may not be able to be with YOU.. I know that if I am your Angel.. at least I get to see YOU.. see you closer and able to love you More because I don't miss YOU.. this wall.. this distance that is not able to let me get to YOU.. I know that I must break down the wall.. break down the distance.. this missing YOU.. so that I can be at least to tell YOU that I love YOU.. it is driving me Insane.. it is driving me crazy Now because I know my Heart.. I know what is IN my Heart and WHO I be loving for such a Long time.. that is why Now.. I just want to be close.. would you please accept these Letters that I write.. I just want to tell you what crosses my Mind.. and that without YOU.. I know that I can't Live.. without YOU I can't breathe so Please Help me to Love YOU more.. as I am writing on the Clean Sheet of Paper.. and I hear the Knock on the window.. and I turn to Look.. it is the Angel who has brought me the gift.. the two Wings.. NO more asking to borrow but Now I have two wings.. Once I put the two Wings on the Back.. I will become Your Angel.. who can be near YOU.. Not missing YOU no More.. I see the Angel leaves the two Wings by the Window and He leaves.. I am looking at your Picture.. I am so sorry that I have to be an Angel.. only thing I can do is to be Close.. just to be there and just loving you from the Distance.. But I do get to tell you how much I love YOU.. at least I have the Voice to share from these letters.. to tell you I love YOU.. for so long.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU still.. as I open the Window and grabbing the two wings.. I am looking at them.. both hands holding the two wings.. I am looking at your Picture sitting on the top of the desk.. I can't breathe.. because it is so Hard for me to breathe right Now.. I want to go.. I want to be with YOU Now.. if I can't do this.. I know I be going crazy.. so please understand why I am doing this for YOU.. I put the two Wings on my Back.. and I fall on the Floor.. and crying.. as I am holding your Picture.. IN my hand is your Picture.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to be with YOU forever.. If I stay here.. I know that I will miss you more.. and Missing YOU drives me Crazy and in such great pain.. I feel aches all over my body.. I am wiping my tears as I am looking at your Picture.. why do I have to be so far from YOU.. why do YOU have to live so far that I must do this.. WHY.. as I feel this Change.. I become Your Angel.. but as long as I can still love YOU and tell YOU How much I love YOU.. I don't care what happens to Me.. as long as YOU know.. YOU know that My Love for you is surreal.. that I love you for real.. and as long as YOU get this Message.. I am looking at the Bottle.. I been taking few shots.. before I would write you a Letter.. I would have the shot Glass.. and with the Bottle of Rice Wine.. I would pour on the Shot Glass.. My Heart could not take this Pain.. this Ache.. so I started to drink.. so that I don't feel this Pain in my Heart.. help Me to love YOU.. Help me by accepting the Letters so that I know that I have a chance to Love YOU... as I would stand UP.. on two feet.. I would roll the Paper and I would grab the Empty Bottle of the rice wine.. put the Rolled paper into the Bottle.. and I am standing.. walking to the window.. and I am looking at the Moon.. I would walk away from the room and go out side.. as I am standing outside.. One hand holding your Picture.. Looking at your Picture.. and On the Other hand I holding the Letter inside the Bottle.. I know that I must get to YOU.. I must fly over the Moon and go where YOU at.. Please be where I met YOU.. Please know that I am coming and I am going to YOU.. I have just written a Letter.. I have told YOU in the letter.. I have asked the Angel.. if I can be Your Angel.. so that I can be near YOU and love you from the distance.. if I stay here.. How can I show YOU that I love YOU.. How can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. so Now.. just standing here.. going out side and just looking at the Moon is Not going to do anything for Me.. I hope that when YOU receive the Message.. the Letter inside this Bottle.. will you open the Letter.. will you please accept and read it.. because I put so much time and thoughts.. my Heart into each Letter.. letting YOU know How much I miss YOU.. I miss you that It drives me Insane.. I miss you that it drives me crazy.. if YOU can't come to me.. then I will go to YOU.. but Now as your Angel.. please accept my Heart.. Please accept the Letters I give YOU.. and I am looking UP the MOON as I am speaking from My Heart.. I am looking UP at the Moon and telling these Words to the Moon.. I know that YOU can't hear me.. because of the distance.. for being so far away.. but I will let you know soon as I fly over the Moon to the Place you are.. Please Open YOUR Heart.. Please let me In.. Open your Heart for Me.. and please don't reject how much I love YOU.. how much I miss YOU.. Please open your Heart and receive and accept.. I am crying Out as I am saying these things.. LOOKING UP at the Moon.. Looking at your Picture.. Holding hard on the Bottle.. I want to give.. I want to give as much as I can.. I want to give YOU how much I love YOU.. I just want to give you my ALL.. my everything to YOU.. and the two wings starts to flap.. as I feel myself being lifted from the Ground.. WHY must I change to Love YOU.. why can't I love you for Me.. WHY do I must have two wings.. why have to be an angel to Love YOU.. I just want to love YOU.. but standing here.. I know I can't get to YOU.. I know that just standing here and standing still.. Nothing will be done.. so Please forgive me for changing into I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU

I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know that Loving YOU sometimes Hurts me the Most because I miss YOU.. I can't stop thinking of YOU.. going back and forth.. to Sitting by the desk.. writing a Letter.. getting UP from and walking to the rest room.. Holding UP the Letter.. looking at myself looking at the Mirror and reading the Letter Out Loud.. I would look at my self.. and it hurts Me because I miss YOU.. I been missing YOU for such a Long time.. going back to sit.. Looking at your Picture.. my Heart starts to burn inside.. I want this Burn to come across Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can deal with the same Burning and this Pain that is aching inside my Soul.. I feel like it is NO fair sometimes because.. WHY is it that I am the One who has to deal with this Pain of ache.. this Pain of missing YOU and It feels Like YOU do not feel anything on the Other side.. do YOU know that I am waiting for YOU still.. that I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I don't want to spend the time looking at the Mirror and Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT for me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters.. here is One that I written for YOU.. I know that I may not be good with speaking.. talking with good speech.. but I know that I can memorize the Letters that I have written for YOU.. to tell YOU a Story.. My Love story of How much I love YOU.. so that YOU can know forever that I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP.. Looking at the MOON.. I am holding the Letter.. and I open my Mouth and I read the Letter Loud.. I would say Out Loud.. do YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. will YOU please listen to what I needs to say.. to tell YOU something that Keeps on coming from My Heart.. that I been coming Out here.. LOOKING at the Night.. I see the stars.. I see the Clouds and I see the Moon above me.. and I am waiting for an Angel.. I do truly believe that an Angel can hear me right Now.. and if an Angel who is passing by decides to stop and to listen.. I am sure that the Angel can come to my aide to Help me with this Letter.. so that this Letter can go to the right person which is YOU.. I want to say.. I been loving YOU.. I keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but do you really believe in this Word that I am telling YOU.. I know that My Heart is Not mistaken.. but it is real because the Only thing I can do is tell YOU that I love YOU.. there is Nothing More I can say.. there is Nothing but the three Letter words I can tell YOU.. which is I LOVE YOU and I want YOU to know.. I want you to know this truth before I go.. because I know that One day SOON.. YOU will know for sure the truth.. that I do really Love YOU and meant it with my Words.. I been waiting for the Angel.. so that if the Angel appears before My eyes.. I can tell that Angel.. and show the Picture of YOU.. and the Angel is going to get it.. will understand it.. the problem is this.. what if this Angel comes and sees YOUR picture and also that Angel falls in love with YOU.. even with the distance and miles away.. I love YOU.. even with not spending time.. and knowing YOU in face to face.. I just love YOU as your are.. I don't need to be in your Presence or be with YOU as in face to face in person to Love YOU.. even with this Miles separated between US.. I just Love YOU just the way YOU are.. if YOU don't believe me.. I know that when the Angel shows UP with my Letters In the hands and gives to YOU.. and when the Angel holds the Picture of YOU and shows YOU.. I believe by that time YOU will know that I love YOU.. I don't needs to be there to Love YOU.. because it is all about Just Loving you First.. when I love YOU.. YOU will know what a Love means in a time when I can't love YOU anymore.. I am Not sure How long I will live.. but as long as I am alive.. I know that I still can love you.. breathing.. I know I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU..I am looking at the window.. as I am in the room.. I just keep on thinking of YOU.. I know that I am missing YOU.. will I ever see YOU.. and I would walk closer to the window.. and I would kneel and looking Out the window.. I am wondering.. do you think as much as I am thinking of YOU.. I can see that the Moon is come Up

Looking for an Angel.. WILL the Angel hear me this very night.. can the Angel hear my voice.. or the Angel is Not there.. and I am looking UP.. looking around.. I can't see the Angel.. I don't see any Angel over here.. But I wish that the Angel can hear me.. I wanted to ask.. can I borrow two Wings.. can I have two wings.. I know that staying here in my room.. looking through the window.. and just looking UP to the Moon.. this distance is not going to take me any where.. I be missing YOU.. I want to tell YOU something.. I need to say something.. Let my words say something.. kneeling here and just looking UP at the Moon.. it is going to take me No where.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to Hold YOU.. if it is cold there.. If it is snowing.. or raining.. I want to Hold YOU.. let my hands touch your hands.. let me pull you closer.. so that I can hear your Heart Beating against Mine.. will you let me stay by your side please.. I am looking for the Angel.. I been praying and wishing for an Angel.. I would enter the room.. and I would look at the window.. and I would walk closer to the window in the room and kneel.. looking through the window.. asking.. Are you there.. I am speaking to the Angel.. I know that YOU can hear Me.. because every Night.. I come to the same spot.. asking for the Angel.. I know that YOU be tired of hearing me asking for the same thing.. so why Not just show UP and tell me that YOU are there.. can I have your two wings.. I need two wings.. If you can't give me two wings.. at least let me borrow two wings from YOU.. can YOU Please say something.. I need two wings.. and if the angel would finally show UP and tell me.. I am going to look UP.. Angel.. I want to have your two wings.. and can I borrow it just for one Night.. I want to spend my time Just being by YOUR side.. if the Angel Allows me to borrow two Wings.. I would place the wings on the right and left of the shoulder blade.. and I know that just for that One Night.. I want to be Your Angel.. and I be asking You.. can I fly over the Moon.. and if YOU believe in an Angel.. at least YOU know that I love YOU.. this Angel will Not let YOU GO.. this Angel will stay by your side.. just to tell YOU that I love YOU.. YOU know how much I missed YOU.. How much I been loving YOU and still been loving YOU.. I want be sitting on the top of the tree branch.. just watching you from the distance.. and having YOUR picture in my Hand.. to show YOU NOT to be afraid of me.. Look.. I will tell you.. LOOK at the Picture.. I am not a stranger.. and I would be with a Letter.. LOOK.. I am the One who has been typing YOU.. sharing to YOU how much I love YOU.. so that YOU would not step back or scream.. the Prove that On the Other side.. for a Long Long time.. I been asking for Your Heart.. for YOU TO Love me too.. even though I am not asking you right Now.. but I am asking you.. will you please love me some day.. I do not know How long it is going to take but until YOU can tell me that YOU love me.. but I would show UP as your angel.. and I would flap the two wings and I would lower to look at YOU.. and I would say.. I did not come here to hurt YOU.. I did not come here to scare you either.. I came here to say.. I have been missing YOU for such a Long time.. I had to ask.. I had to beg.. I had to pray.. I had to wish.. and Many Many Many Nights.. I would enter the room.. and go to the window in the room.. and kneel.. I would LOOK UP to see the Moon.. and I open the window and I would be asking for an Angel.. if the Angel is real or true.. and I would be asking for the Angel to answer me.. I would keep on going to the same spot.. until One night the Angel came down to the Window I was kneeling.. I just could not believe my eyes.. I started to cry when I saw the Angel and the Angel asked me why I kept on calling for Him and I asked the Angel.. two wings to Borrow.. just for one Night.. and I would show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I been telling the angel My Heart.. How much I been missing YOU.. How many nights I had to come out.. asking for you.. I would start just standing Out side by the House.. and Looking at the Moon.. I would pour out my Heart to the Moon about YOU.. and I knew that NO matter How much I would tell that Moon.. the Moon is Not going to tell me any thing.. it hurts because I wanted YOU to know.. so I went to the room and I believed in the Angel.. Maybe the Angel can Help me instead.. so that is when I started to call for the Angel.. which the angel came.. I asked to borrow the two wings.. which the Angel gave to me for just one Night.. I showed the angel the Letter I been writing to YOU and also the Picture of YOU and I had to be the one to go to see YOU.. I been missing YOU so much lately.. I just had to come.. Now.. I been sitting on the tree branch.. I saw YOU in a distance in a shop.. so I waited.. Of course I did not mean to scare YOU.. but the Angel gave me the permission to be an Angel for this one Night.. Now I am looking at YOU.. I don't want to leave.. I want to stay by your side.. and be there with YOU.. I want tell you how much I love YOU and if I do go.. I know that I am going to be missing YOU.. I hate missing YOU when I love YOU.. why can't YOU come with Me.. or why can't I stay with you.. I brought the Letter to show YOU.. it is Me who been telling YOU and sharing you my Heart.. so that YOU would not think I am crazy.. Do you see this letter.. Do you see the Picture.. it is YOU.. I been having this picture for a Long time.. and Only this Picture.. when I feel down.. I would take a LOOK at your picture.. I can't stop crying.. Because YOU Look so much prettier.. Because YOU look so much Beautiful.. Why do you have to be this Pretty.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. When YOU Love some one.. YOU look much more Beautiful in my eyes then ever.. I don't know what it is.. maybe it is because My Heart sees so much More.. I see Love that Only I can bring and tell and give to YOU.. I just want to hold YOU.. to tell YOU that I have never stopped loving YOU.. I came all down way.. flying over the Moon.. Just to see YOU for this One Night.. Now.. I don't want to leave.. I can't go because I know that I be missing YOU again.. I want to see YOU again.. I want to tell YOU how beautiful YOU are.. How much I want to be with YOU.. that when YOU leave.. when I go.. I know that I am going to ask the Angel again for the two wings.. if I can have the two wings so that I can every Night.. flying over the Moon.. waiting for YOU.. sitting on that Same Tree on that branch.. Just to tell YOU how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU.. but Now.. since I saw YOU.. and I gave you the letter.. I know that I have to go.. YOU are the Only One who I love.. that is why I just can't go.. I just wanted to say.. I been on the Other side.. just waiting for YOU.. I even stoop by the House.. when the Moon came UP at Night.. I would stare at the MOON as it stare at me.. and I would hold Your Picture.. asking if the Moon can speak.. I first tried by asking the MOON to be the Voice I really needed to tell the One.. I been showing the Picture.. to that MOON.. to take a closer LOOK.. and LOOK at the Picture.. to Please Come Closer.. if the MOON has an ear.. can the MOON hear my words.. I first came for few months.. I stood in the same spot out side of the House.. with your Picture.. but I just grew tired because the MOON never seems to care.. did not come closer.. did Not speak.. it just stood there staring at Me.. so I had to try another way.. Now.. Look at these two wings.. I do thank the Angel who responded to my request because Now I get to see YOU.. I get to give you this Letter.. when YOU took this Letter.. My Heart stopped.. and I felt the beating of my Heart goes faster because YOU are the Only One who I love.. My Heart keeps on beating faster as I am looking at YOU.. But.. I just don't want to leave.. WHY do I have to leave YOU.. I just can't leave.. But I know that I must because I made the Promise to return.. to give back the two wings that I borrowed.. But I came here to see YOU.. I kept on missing YOU.. just looking at your Picture was not Enough.. just telling YOU through writings was Not enough for Me.. I started More.. I started to feel in my Heart I want More of YOU.. I want Your Love.. I want to see YOU.. your Presence.. your Smile.. Your Beautiful.. Your Scent.. I wanted More because My Heart started to Love YOU more.. I want More of YOU because I love you a lot More now.. why can't I be with YOU.. WHY can't I hold YOU.. my arms is killing me because it is YOU I want to hold so tight.. I want to hold you close to tell YOU.. why can't YOUR Heart be opened to me.. please tell your Heart to be open to me so that YOU will know who is the ONE been loving YOU.. It is Me who loves YOU.. I don't think there is Another WHO can Love you More and More as I can because I am able to tell YOU Heart to Heart.. if a Person is like a wall.. what good is that Person.. do NOT tell you how Much but YOU know that I can tell YOU.. PULL you into my arms.. and LOOK at your ear and I will speak.. telling YOU.. I am the One who Loves YOU.. Open your Heart.. Please.. Tell your Heart to Open to me so I can tell you more and more.. I love YOU.. as I am holding Your hand.. My hand just can't let Go.. and It is killing me because I know that it is time for me to go.. I am looking at the paper.. the drawing of a Heart.. and I am standing by this Tall tree.. is this the Right Tree.. can YOU please tell me if I am standing at the right Place.. I see about twelve more Trees behind and All around this Park.. WHY are you telling me to come to this Park without telling me Which Tree to go too.. Is it because I have delayed my Coming.. DO I needs to tell YOU that I am so Sorry.. I am so sorry for Not coming to the appointed Time.. I did Not expect the changing of the weather.. Of course

MAH MAH.. I am watching the Little Children.. boys are walking into the training Ground.. I just can't believe that they are from the Garden.. the Parents of these children.. some of them are my friends growing Up and I am watching YOU standing by the Fence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I never thought you be having this Big Heart.. Now look at the Hopes and Dreams YOU are planting.. the Parents who came with their Children.. thinking about their future.. and I am on the Two Knees.. tears just fills UP.. and I can feel my tears streaming down.. and One of the guy who came with his Son stops and Looks at me.. and He smiles.. and Just cannot believe that I am the trainer for the new Recruits.. and He cries Looking at me because.. I know that His SON can also dream for this Nation.. the Crown Princess.. who loves the People.. who are the One with the Big Heart for the People.. who is the One who helped the Poor People in that Garden.. Now.. the People has come because this Nation is growing stronger and stronger because of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU are here that all these things can happen.. I do remember.. the First time My Heart felt something.. I was in this Position.. I saw a friend laying on the ground.. He was very Poor and Lowly servant just like Me.. we had NO Place to Go.. No place to sleep.. hungry without Homes and just picking food from the Floors.. it was at the Garden.. He got sick eating watching Him hit the floor.. I was crying for that Friend.. he would throw UP in blood and he looks at me.. telling me that Being so poor.. it is NO JOKE.. and he tells me.. I am dying.. I was crying and crying as He lay on the Floor.. My Heart broke into pieces.. and He looks at me and says.. when He dies to plant him by my Mother's grave.. and my Mother was like an Auntie to him.. as I saw him laying sick.. I heard a Loud Voice.. and I turn to look.. the day YOU came to the Garden.. I turn too look.. I fell on my face looking at the ground.. I saw YOU sitting on the Horse.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would cry Out Loud More.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please hear my voice.. and I saw YOU.. the YOUNG Girl you were.. YOU had a Sword.. small sword and Pointed to my direction to Speak.. and I would be crying.. could Not talk much but it was about my dying friend.. He was laying down.. and throw UP blood in front of me.. and asking me to bury him when he died.. But Help me MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are the Only ONE with the Power to save the Life of a BOY who has NO ONE else to turn TOO.. PLEASE.. MAH MAH.. HELP US and I would be crying Loud.. he is my best friend.. My father raised him like a SON to Me like a Brother.. SAVE HIM MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH... Please help my Dying friend.. and tears would be falling down.. and I can see.. Maybe I needs to die with him too.. if YOU can't help him.. I would lift UP my Head looking UP at you.. with tears in my eyes.. my Friend needs YOUR HELP.. the Crown Princess.. which is YOU raise UP your Little Sword and YOU would call for the Royal Physicians who came.. I was very shocked that they came here to the Garden.. I never thought YOU would do this for the Little People.. the Poor People.. for the Lowly lives who NO ONE cares about.. NO ONE cares for the Broken.. the Little People who has NO NAMES.. How do people know my Name.. they just don't and I was touched.. But YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS cared.. my best friend was dying before my eyes.. and I cannot do anything to help.. I am watching him throw UP blood and He is asking me to bury HIM next to my Mother who is already GONE.. and I would close both eyes crying Loud.. my Heart hurts because He is telling me that HE is dying.. this pain.. and I would watch the Royal Physicians walking into the Garden.. and two of them goes over to my Best Friend.. I watch HIM being carried by the two doctors.. and I would walk the wood cutters and stone builders and they have come with Nurses and even the Maids and kitchen Ladies all comes to this Garden.. feeding the Poor.. feeding the Lost.. feeding thousands of children with no homes and I would watch the remodel of the Garden as the Homes are being placed in the Garden.. and as I come to my senses.. and I am both on the Knees Looking at the ground.. the man who knows Me brings His Son.. he was the Best Friend who was on the Floor.. on the ground talking about if He dies to bury HIM close to my Mother.. Now I am seeing his SON and I look at the SON.. and I lift UP my Head and I see you standing by the Fence and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU please give me your ears and I see YOU standing with the White Dress and the Big Crown on the top of your Head.. and YOU would point the Sword direct at me.. and I would watch YOU walk closer to ME and stops next to me.. I would lift UP my Head looking at YOU.. DO you remember the Garden.. DO you remember this Man.. and I see you turn your Head looking at him.. and it seems like YOU don't know who he is and I would say.. he is the One who I was talking about.. the Day YOU came to the garden.. and I was crying.. I was asking YOU to save a Life of a Boy.. and YOU were sitting on the Horse and I was begging for Your Help.. pleading for a cause.. to help a dying Boy.. and It was when YOU brought the Royal Physicians.. two of them went over and picked HIM up.. do you remember that Day.. and I see you turn your Head looking at HIM and I see that YOU DO remember.. you would smile LOOKING at him.. Yes.. if the Royal Physicians did NOT show UP that Day.. I know that He would Not been alive this very day.. HE has remembered YOU ever since and TOLD ME.. One day HE is going to come to join the Nation where YOU stand.. NOW he is here with his SON.. and NOW we are reunited because of what YOU have done that day.. I was pleading.. begging and asking you to help me.. to Help Him and Now.. LOOK what has happened because of WHAT YOU have done that Day.. as I would hold his son around my Arms.. I want to teach this YOUNG boy how to fight for this Nation.. to raise UP the next YOUNG generations of these Boys to HELP forth.. to Push this Nation which YOU will rule.. for you to conqueror so that this NATION Of people would be so Strong for YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because of Your Big Heart for the people you love.. the People are the reason to help this Nation to become stronger so that YOU can RULE as the True CONQUEROR.. and I would see YOU pointing your Sword at me and telling me to get UP.. so I would listen and I would get UP on two feet.. as I get UP.. I am hearing sounds of foot steps.. and I turn towards the Fence.. and a Messenger comes on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand and He gets Out of the Horse and Runs towards YOU.. stops.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down arm forward with the Scroll in the Hand.. I see YOU turn looking at the Messenger.. and YOU take the Scroll.. and YOU would unfold and YOU would read the Scroll.. and I see something is wrong.. what is Wrong HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WHAT IS wrong and I see you hand me the Scroll and I would take a LOOK at the Scroll and I would read it.. The ENEMIES are COMING.. and Another War wants to break its way.. and I am looking at YOU.. and I would fall on two Knees.. and My Head looks down.. arm goes forward and I know that YOU want to do something and My hand grabs your Wrist.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you holding the King's Sword in your hand.. but I would pull on the Other Wrist.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is going to be more fierce then last TIME and NO.. I wish that YOU can hear the Heart of Mine.. I know that YOU are truly a fierce warrior and Would do anything to Fight and to protect for this Nation.. but YOU have to remember that this Time.. the Children has come into the training camp.. into the training Ground.. I just can't see YOU go out there.. last time My Heart wanted to fall down.. I saw YOU on the Horse and the enemies just got too Close to YOU.. I can't see something like this ever happening because YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. and it was YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who opened the Fences for the Children.. these little children has come Long ways from the Garden and they have come under your Care.. and Only YOU can protect these children because they have all come to YOU.. for the War.. I know that we have mighty Men and soldiers.. the warriors who will go Out there to fight for this Nation.. to protect and to defend because this is the reason WHY I was born to do this.. to Protect YOU.. to serve and to defend YOU.. for the Nation.. I am asking YOU to be there for the Children who has come a long ways.. they have come to YOU.. they have thought about you when they came here and they just arrived.. and I would Be holding unto your Wrist.. so Please only for this time.. can YOU please listen to my Plea.. to my Heart because I just can't fight out there when YOU are fighting with me.. I just can't focus.. and knowing How strong and fierce YOU are.. I see you turn your Head and looking down at me.. but I can tell that YOU will not listen.. and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. leave the Battle for Us.. for the Men that YOU have raised UP.. YOU have plenty of men who can fight.. How about Me.. How about my Heart.. I just can't see you out there.. I have tried when YOU were out there last time.. but I just could Not.. I wanted the sword to drive Into my Heart when I saw YOU.. I wanted YOUR SWORD to pierce into

MAH MAH.. side.. they need Your hands to rest.. and I see YOU looking at them.. and I would turn to LOOK over.. I am hearing More foot steps.. and I see Six Horses.. and they are the Royal Princes.. the six Older Brothers has come.. on the Horses and I would see behind the seventh.. and ALL seven men would get out of the Horses.. and as I would watch the six Princes.. they would fall on two knees.. and they have brought their swords and I just can't believe.. the seventh person is the Older man.. the Teacher.. the master who taught me with his armor who came to serve in the military Arts.. I just can't believe.. and More Military Generals are behind the Horses of the Princes.. and ALL on the two knees Heads looking down.. arms out forward saluting to Your Authority as the One true Ruler.. and I am holding Your Wrist.. this is why I am asking YOU to please stay Behind.. YOU have men.. powerful strong Men who is going to Fight for this Nation.. the Little Children needs YOU too with their families.. because of what YOU have done in the past at the Garden.. YOU are able to see them grow UP becoming parents NOW and with children.. they have all come to support this Nation.. so Please help for the Next UP coming.. we.. CROWN PRINCESS needs you to be here with the families and the Little Children.. YOU are the Only ONE that needs to stay to preserve the next and to RULE for them too.. and I would watch ALL the voices shouting Out.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please stay and protect the Families and the Little Children and I would watch YOU.. your sword is pointing to the War Ground and I just can't believe it that YOU want to fight in the war.. WHY HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY.. and my Heart breaks because YOU would not listen to the voices of Your Men.. YOUR PEOPLE.. we shout Out loud More.. Please stay with children.. I would watch One boy picking UP a stick and he shouts Fight.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there.. telling me to get UP.. and the four of Us all get up.. the Crown Princess is calling is what the Messenger is telling.. the three of the friends started to walk forward.. But I stop.. I am not going to walk over.. I can't kiss YOUR HAND if I can't love YOU.. I rather NOT go and just turn the Other way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand

MAH MAH.. But IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am looking at the 2nd Line Top General.. and I am holding the sword.. and I would run and I jump into the Air with the Sword in my hand and swing Forward.. the Blades hit each other.. as he would swing the Sword back at me.. I land on the ground.. and I turn to Look back.. and I would jump back Kick and I would swing the Sword in my hand.. the Blades Hit each Other.. he does a front Kick and Hits my chest.. and I fall on the ground.. as I see my Sword next to me.. the Seven Friends of mine are in the back.. they would all Pull out the swords to Fight.. but I would grab the sword and raising UP the right Arm.. the swords goes back into the sheath and as I turn to LOOK at YOU behind.. YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who are standing along side with the Seven friends of Mine.. I get UP slowly.. and the 2nd top Line general is standing with his Men.. the Generals and they are all smiling as I get UP slowly.. I have Lost before to this Man.. this Time.. I just can't Lose this Battle.. and I would grab the Sword.. and I would run UP and the 2nd rank General grabs his Sword and WE swing the Swords at each other.. Blades Hit and Hit.. I can hear the sound of the CLANG of the blade of the swords Hitting.. and I would go back as the 2nd rank General moves forward swinging the sword at me.. I would Counter block as the Blades Hit and I would duck and sweep the Leg and he falls to the ground.. the Seven Friends of Mine raises UP the Swords shouting.. and I jump into the Air with the Sword.. ready to Stab but I stop.. we are in the same Team.. How can we fight against each other.. the Seven Generals would all pull out their swords and they circle AROUND ME.. I see YOU walking forward.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. YOU pull out the Sword and YOU Point.. the Generals all put their Swords Down.. and I would Put the sword Down as well.. the 2nd Top rank General gets UP on the Floor.. and Puts the sword Down.. and He kneels.. and two Knees goes.. and I just can't believe this.. In front of the CROWN PRINCESS.. In front of the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we are fighting for Nothing.. for What and I would kneel.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down.. arm raise up forward.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you stop.. with the Big Crown on top of the Head.. wearing the white Dress and YOU would look at the 2nd Top rank General.. and His head Looks on the ground.. with the Seven Generals.. they all fall down before YOU.. two knees and raises UP the voices.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. We are so Sorry for this.. and the Seven friends of Mine.. they all fall before YOU.. two knees.. Heads all look on the ground.. arms raises UP forward.. saluting as the TOP Commander.. and I see you Pointing the sword at me.. and I would say.. We have a History.. of having a Bad Blood against.. I remember when I first came to the training Camp.. and the Guard would say to HIM when He was just a general.. that I learned from the Old Man.. the master.. which NO ONE believed Me.. of course NO ONE will believe me.. and HE wanted me to prove that I was really His student learning from a teacher.. so.. I do remember we fought on the training Ground.. I lost using the wooden stick sword.. and he was very good.. and when I was struck Down by the WOOD STICK.. HE saw me on the ground and I couldn't get back UP.. started to Laugh at me and spit at me.. telling me that I am a Liar.. I been holding this grudge for a Long time.. that I know that One day we will meet and today is the day.. of course I never thought I would put him to the floor.. but I knew.. if I can't Now.. I will never if I let him go.. but.. I saw Your Face.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw YOU standing by and In my Heart.. we are under the same Nation.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. and He is also a part of Your Solider.. How can I fight someone who is with YOU.. that is when I saw YOU.. I saw the Big Crown on the top of your Head and started to think.. these are YOUR MEN.. they all belong to YOU.. as the ruler for this Nation.. for this Country.. How can I dare to put a sword to HIS FACE when HE is also a HIGH ranking Officer.. and I realize How fool I have become because I know myself.. HOW Little I am and How Little I must Be.. because I am very small.. that is the Only way I got here today because I started so Small.. WHO am I.. and what am I doing.. and I see YOU looking at me.. I see you putting down the sword.. and I have tears in my eyes.. I do not want to hurt any one.. but if there is a war who is against YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. even though I want Peace and Harmony and Unity and Joy with LOVE.. if someone wants to mess with YOU and YOUR NATION.. your people.. I will fight if I have too.. I will never back DOWN on a fight when it comes to YOU WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and your hands touch my hands.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. WHY would you hold my hands.. why would you touch my hands for.. and I am looking towards the Fence.. I just can't believe my eyes.. and I am looking at children.. Little Boys are walking.. holding hands with their Mothers and Fathers and they stop by the Fences.. and More People are coming as they are stopping by the Fences.. and I am looking.. and I recognize one of them.. there is a man.. and he is around my age.. and I do remember he was a friend growing UP in the garden.. are those people common people from the Garden.. and the Sons.. the Boys are holding little Sticks in their Hands and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. as YOU turn around to LOOK back at the Fences.. and people.. thousands of People who lived in the Garden comes and they all Lower.. face to the ground and they shout.. Please teach Our Sons to fight.. Please teach our daughters to COOK for the Palace.. and my Heart.. I would start to cry more and More.. tears are shedding down hard.. the Night YOU came.. you gave the People their freedom.. many people who were dirt poor had NO HOMES.. medical treatments.. and HOW you called the people from the ROYAL PALACE to go to the Garden.. and How you made the Place a New.. I believe some of the People thought about YOU MAH MAH.. and Now.. LOOK.. look at these People with children.. and Now.. they want to join and repay the debt they had because of you Crown Princess.. the Heart to Love even the MOST UNLOVED people in this world.. THEY just want to pay it back.. Just Like Me.. DO you see My Heart Now.. CROWN PRINCESS.. can you see the Heart that I have for this Nation.. for YOU and Your People.. and the Little Boys are raising UP the Sticks in the air wanting to be a part of the large gathering to Fight for the Nation.. the LITTLE BOYS can grow UP with a Future that Only YOU can give.. because NOW they have come.. LOOK at all those little Children.. they are standing by the Fences.. wanting to JOIN in the Military arts.. as YOU would turn to LOOK at them.. I would say.. this is why I started to Love YOU.. it was the Day when YOU came to the Garden.. People in the Garden had NO HOPES and NO DREAMS.. just POOR.. NO future.. where can the Most Lowest People go.. they do NOWHERE.. I do remember the Day

MAH MAH.. Nothing to Lose.. I have Nothing.. BUT YOU gave me a chance.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it was just that ONE chance I truly needed from YOU.. I think back at the Garden.. walking Out of the gates.. I see you ON the Horse.. sitting on the Horse.. and these ROYAL People comes to the Garden.. many sick and dying.. people were so hungry and had nothing to Eat.. no Homes to live.. but YOU came.. rebuilding that Garden and giving People to dream.. I remember after I saw YOU.. and I was touched.. I wanted to give YOU the Flower.. in my hand was One flower that I had.. there was Nothing that I could of give YOU but just that One.. what can a Poor Boy living as homeless can give.. from my Mother's grave.. a Bed of Flower.. a SUN FLOWER was blooming.. I grabbed that and I wanted to say.. YOU are like this FLOWER to me.. as Bright as the SUN.. when you think of a FLOWER.. it just melts YOUR HEART.. it makes you smile as IT melts as you keep on looking at it.. as I saw that Flower.. I remember I ran.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. and I gave it to YOU.. I did Not think that the CROWN PRINCESS would take a Flower from Me.. but I watched.. many people who were hungry and dying.. the sick.. and homeless people.. the Crown PRINCESS has the BIGGEST Heart.. YOU may not know it then but NOW.. LOOK at the Fences.. the People who came from the Garden are here and they want to JOIN with YOU.. LOOK WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS LOOK at those people by the Fences.. they just want to be a part of this Growing Nation of Yours to HELP YOU to fulfill your Dreams as the RULER for the Next.. the day I saw YOU On the Horse.. and YOU brought the Royal people from the palace to help the Poor people in the Garden.. and I gave YOU that SUN FLOWER was the day when I said to My Heart to YOU.. I love YOU.. that is when I made UP my Mind that I am going to go to that palace to be close to YOU.. to Love YOU from afar when YOU don't see it.. the Day when I saw YOU take the SUN FLOWER from my Hands.. I would unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I would tell the Drawing picture of YOU that I love YOU.. you may Not know How much I love YOU but I wanted to show YOU how much.. I think YOU will know this by Now because.. even the People from the Garden has come long ways just to tell YOU.. they have children to give to YOU.. to raise UP the Next Generations of for the Palace.. for the future generations to help you to Conqueror this Nation.. as I am watching YOU.. I see YOU looking at the people by the Fence.. I would raise UP the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE!! to Crown Princess.. HOORAY TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends of Mine picks up their Swords and raise it UP HIGH and Shouts Out.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. now the 2nd top rank General Raises UP his Sword and shouts.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the 7 generals raises UP their swords in the air and says.. HOORAY TO CROWN PRINCESS.. and I see you.. the Crown Princess turning to Look at the military soldiers.. and I would raise UP the Sword in my hand.. tears are just streaming down my face.. MANSAE to Crown PRINCESS.. and everyone.. even the People who came from the Garden all raises UP theirs arms crying in tears says.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. TO WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you holding UP the Sword in the Air.. and Everyone shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and My Heart.. It just can't stop beating.. it keeps on beating and beating as I would be Looking at YOU.. as YOU are standing by the Fences.. hands are touching YOU on the sides.. I see you Open the Fences.. and the people from the Garden.. they start to walk in.. Little Children.. boys and girls want to join in to be with YOU as their Crown Princess.. I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU

MAH MAH.. Have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am standing in the training camp.. and I see you coming over from the Fence.. the Big Crown on the Top of your Head.. and the White Dress.. as I see you walk alone.. YOU take my breathe away.. and I can feel my Heart beating so fast.. and as YOU come to meet me in the Center of the training camp.. the New Recruits.. over 200 men are standing by.. as YOU stop.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I am standing looking at YOU as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I do not need this any more.. but Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have to always remember that when you were Never around.. this was the Only THING that Held my Heart because whenever I missed YOU.. this was the Only thing that helped me through the way.. When I was left alone for a Long time.. this was the Only thing.. it may Not be anything special to YOU.. It may not be any of the importance to YOU.. YOU may just look at it as a paper.. that someone drew long ago.. and it may only seems like the past piece of Art.. but to Me.. it has many memories of loving YOU.. many Memories of Looking UP at the Moon.. standing Alone in the Nights.. there was SUN.. but also there was the MOON.. there was a time when Winter came by and it be very cold outside.. when times I saw the falling of the rain.. when I lost my Father.. and I felt my Heart broke all the way.. when I could Not see YOU and even the BOY who drew this Picture.. How he had to sneak into the Palace gates and How from the Far he drew YOU.. who got caught and arrested.. He was beaten and Put to death.. telling me that this is for me and knowing that HE wishes that My Dreams came true and that ALL this did Not mean Nothing to Me as he died by the Sword.. Even the Older MAN.. who was the teacher in my Life saw this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU who knew WHO you are.. but told me to GO.. and to Protect YOU and to defend the Nation which it belongs to YOU and this Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU was the main reason WHY I could go On.. when I was at the Garden.. and I saw YOU there for the first TIME.. I wanted that Boy to draw.. of course I knew it be just too late to call HIM.. when I saw YOU by the gates of the Garden and I walked Out and saw YOU.. I wanted to ask YOU.. Can you Please draw another or Give me another Picture from the Art Sketch.. but.. when YOU left.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. the Day you left the Garden is when I knew the Only thing I had was this.. and my arms would lift as my hands are Holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. it was only this I had because I knew.. I was Not sure if I could ever see YOU again.. when I would see YOU again was my thoughts.. going UP the Hill and standing by the tree below was the Garden and Across I would see the palace.. and Knowing that is the Place where YOU at.. I wanted to Go.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. but what if I am NOT ALLOWED to get in and be put into the Prison instead.. But.. I made UP my mind.. I can die tomorrow and I will say I love YOU.. I can die the few days Later.. as Long there is still a Breathe IN me.. I know I can still Believe in Loving YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I do remember leaving the Garden after I made UP my Mind.. in the Snow walking and knowing How cold it was.. and knowing I could die A lot sooner.. I felt the Last Push of my body as I kept on walking through the SNOW.. I was thinking of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am not sure How much More I have in Me.. But I will still try to go to YOU and I kept on walking in the Snow and I felt my body.. it could NOT go no more and I fell down in the Snow.. I kept on thinking of YOU until the last breathe saying I am so sorry I might Not make It.. As I was on the Guard.. watching the Post at Night.. and How I became the Palace guard guarding the back gates.. I do remember pulling the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. and LOOKING.. I been needing to LOOK.. thinking of YOU.. saying to this Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. YOU may not hear my voice be telling YOU but I say it as I look at YOU.. that I love YOU.. do you know How much I love YOU and I would hold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture close to my Heart.. to my Chest.. I wish that I be holding YOU instead but.. it be this paper instead.. someone telling me that Behind me is the Chamber of Your ROOM.. and I remember I turn back to LOOK.. I saw YOU.. looking Out from the patio of the Chamber of Your ROOM.. the MOON was Out.. I would LOOK UP at.. I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU see me.. I am here and it has been such a Long time coming.. and Now.. I know that I do Not need this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch paper any more.. I want to see YOU take this from Me.. Now I am here close to YOU.. I told the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. Once I meet YOU.. I can Now send it away and give it to YOU because it belongs to YOU.. it has come to the right Person WHO I love the Most.. so Please take this from Me because I am giving YOU my Heart.. My Heart is in it because it is YOU who I never forgotten.. and I see YOU LOOKING at me.. as I am on two Knees.. My Head is Looking on the floor.. my arms raise with the Paper.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. Please take this From me because I don't need it any more.. why do I need it when I see YOU here.. there is NO POINT for me to have because it is YOU.. I see your hands take the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and my tears.. it starts to flow Out of both eyes of me

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I am looking at this Book.. and I would close the Book.. looking at your Picture.. It has been so hard finishing the Pages of this Big Book but.. I just wanted to let you know.. I wanted it to be done because we made a Promise.. the promise which I must keep on my part.. when I try to do something and if it is going to be something that I know in my Heart I just can't keep.. I will not do it at all because I don't want YOU to see me as a failure.. some one who cannot finish or cannot keep the Word.. that is why it is something that has to be Special.. it must be an Unique experience because I believe it is so Hard to keep a Word or to Keep a Promise.. it has gotten harder over the Years but when I think of YOU.. I know that IN MY Heart.. I must have YOU.. I must win your Heart and make you Mine forever.. to say to YOU.. to tell YOU to come closer and I would ask for Your Ear.. can you please lend me your Time and Lend me your Ear.. I must say few words so that YOU can hear my Heart.. and I will say to YOU when I see you Close.. when I see your ear approach me.. I will say.. My Heart is crying.. Not just crying but heart is dying for Your love.. dying just to say I love YOU.. and I been looking at your Picture.. sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the Pages of this Big Book.. I would be thinking.. should I not read at ALL.. but when I think of the first time I saw YOU.. and just to get closer.. I must do my Part and that is to read.. as I would Pull the Note Book before me.. reading part.. flipping through many pages.. and trying to sit and focus.. concentrate on the Words on the Pages of telling Me.. but next is the Picture of YOU.. and I would stop.. thinking the Focus is gone.. can't concentrate when I be looking at the Picture of YOU.. because YOU are so beautiful to Me.. I would flip back few pages to re read.. and yes.. the Time flies very fast when YOU start to day dream.. holding your Hand.. and Pulling you close in my arms and LOOKING at YOU.. looking at your ear.. if I can speak.. if I am able to tell YOU the way my Heart feels about YOU.. I would say.. Please.. let me explain this Heart of Mine.. Please let me speak so that I can tell YOU.. and I would say.. ALL day.. when I did Not see YOU.. I started to miss YOU.. wondering when I can come close to YOU.. will you let me come close.. Please let me by your side.. because I need to be with YOU.. why.. because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. and I would look down.. looking at the Pages.. trying to write the summary of this BOOK.. trying to write more than a sentence.. the More I try to read this Big Book.. the More I want to see Your Picture.. but.. it took me back and forth of fighting myself that I would say.. I have made a promise to YOU.. and that is the End of the Line.. I told YOU and yes.. we made the agreement that If I finish this BIG BOOK and write the summary on the paper for this BOOK.. you will let me in the BOOK CLUB.. it was yesterday.. when I went to the Library to see YOU.. and I would be waiting in a Long Line.. feels like YOU are a famous Arthur.. because I have never seen so many People waiting in the Line.. and with a BOOK in one hand and the Paper on the Other hand waiting to be the Next.. to Join the Book Club.. I was excited when I saw People sitting down and there were many Cuts in between.. feels like an Audition to make a Movie.. and YOU are like the director who be looking for Actors and Actresses.. but I knew that I spend Many Hours.. re reading this Book.. going back and Forth.. writing on the Pieces of papers.. scribble this and Scribble that.. papers be rolled and thrown into the trash Can because I just could not Write well.. but as I let go of your Picture for few Hours.. opened the drawer and Put your Picture into it and closed the Door.. felt like an addiction.. wanted to open that drawer.. struggling to LOOK at your Picture but I told YOU.. I must finish this BIG BOOK first and then I can look at your Picture as Much time as I want.. so I had to focus and started to write the summary.. it felt so GOOD to finish Both the reading of the BIG BOOK and also the writing on the Note Book summary of the Book and taking it to YOU.. I would smile.. when the BIG BOOK hit the Final Page and I would close the BIG BOOK.. I smiled and said.. It is DONE.. I have kept my Word to YOU.. I have kept my promise to YOU and after writing on the Pages of the Note BOOK about the story what It means to me.. I just had to share what is real from my Heart.. not to act like I know but just be real with myself to YOU.. telling YOU my Thoughts about the story on this BIG BOOK.. as I would enter the Library.. and I am watching the Lines of People going down.. and I would see many people would fail trying.. I saw many stormed Off the Library and angry is what I saw in most people's faces.. as I would get closer and closer to the table and I would see YOU there sitting with Your Friend.. there were more guys in the Line than ladies so I guess the Intentions or the Motives must be Like Mine.. who wants to be Just Close to YOU.. as I would be the Next in the line.. and I would sit on the chair of the table.. and I look at YOU.. who is sitting across from me.. and YOU are looking at me.. probably thinking that I am just like All of these Other guys who came for the wrong reasons.. and who did Not keep his Word or His Part of the Deal means the Promise.. but.. It was such a great struggle on my part.. when I saw YOUR Picture inside the Big BOOK.. it was distracting me A lot because of Your Beauty.. How can someone who is so Beautiful Like YOU loves to be in a BOOK CLUB.. I am Not say all the Beautiful ladies are the same.. but it seems like YOU are so Different because YOU are so Beautiful.. I remember when I first Walked into the Library.. and I saw YOU walking.. holding BOOKS in your Arms and I just had to get Close to YOU.. I slip and tripped and it got to YOU.. the BOOKS fell on the Floor and I fell alone with YOU inside this Library.. I know that I just can't tell YOU any words Yet because YOU are not going to Like me at first.. and that is why when I heard of YOU telling me about this BOOK CLUB.. I must join into this Club to be part and that is the Only way to get close to YOU.. I would push the BIG BOOK towards your direction and told YOU.. I have read the Whole Book.. the pages are so long.. but I still had to do what I told I was going to do.. that is to keep my Word.. to Keep my promises I made to YOU.. and Do you remember that I called you on the Phone and You Picked UP.. I had to delay because I knew that the time line for me was just too short to finish in on time.. and YOU also told me.. that YOU wanted me to write YOU a Summary on the Pieces of papers of this Story that I read in this BIG BOOK.. and I would put few papers down and I would Push with my hand towards YOU.. and YOU looked at me.. and I guess you thought that I was not that serious type.. I am very serious when it is very Important for me to do.. when I want to so something and made the choice and made the decision to do something.. I will do it no matter of the Cost.. How hard or difficult it is to finish.. I just don't try but I go all in if it is YOU.. if you are very Important in my Life.. I can also make the changes for YOU TO know my Heart.. I see you grabbing the pieces of papers.. and YOU would start to read what I wrote on the Pieces of papers.. and YOU would pass the Pieces of papers to your Friend who is sitting next to YOU.. and I would take the Picture of YOU and Place it on the TOP of the table.. and I would say.. I would look at this Picture.. your Smile.. and How beautiful YOU truly are really amazes Me.. I had to struggle looking at your Picture.. if felt Like I was getting More drunk the More I saw your Picture.. I even opened the Drawer and placed YOUR picture inside in and closed for few Hours.. I was shaking in my hands.. wanting to Open the drawer and to take your Picture Out of the drawer and to have a Peek.. the truth is that More I see your Picture.. the More I would forget the story I was reading in the Pages of the BOOK.. I would grab the Drawer and I would try to pull the Open so that I can look at your Picture.. but I knew that there was something far more Important for me to do at that point and it was to keep my Promises I made to YOU so I would start to look at the Pages of the BOOK and kept on reading.. reading more and More reading as the pages would be read and I would flip the page to the Next.. I would be thinking about YOU.. thinking about the Meeting and How this is Much more Important to me than just LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. and I would see you turn YOUR Head looking at your Friend.. and I see her smile.. and YOU turn to LOOK at me.. I see your hand out.. telling me that I can join in the Book Club.. and I thought this was a Joke.. I never been in any Kind of Club before.. but when YOU gave me YOUR hand Out.. I knew that this mean it is true.. I put my hand out to shake YOUR HAND.. and I could not believe It.. I get to be close to you.. it does Not matter what YOU think of me at first because I believe it starts with the first small step.. I stood in the Line.. and I saw many men sitting on this Chair and they were rejected.. and I saw men getting UP with such anger and they just walked Out.. and could NOT join in this Club.. as I am in the ROOM thinking about what happened yesterday.. because YOU gave me another BOOK.. but this BOOK is Not that Big.. and How you told me that YOU really enjoyed and Loved reading this Book because of the Story. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am missing YOU now.. I am missing you so bad right Now.. because Yesterday.. I never felt so happy in my Life.. when I saw YOU looking at me.. to able to show YOU something but to see you giving me a Smile.. Just that One glimpse of Smile is all I needed

Of your most favorite BOOKS.. that YOU read many times.. and over and over you would keep on reading It.. what happens when I start to love this BOOK you Love.. will you let me keep this BOOK.. If I can connect to Your Soul and to connect what it means to relate as a reader just Like YOU.. I wonder will a day will come when YOU can really Love me too.. that I am waiting for that Day where YOU can say to Me.. that YOU Love me.. as much as I love YOU.. you also can say to me that YOU love Me.. I am waiting for that Day.. that One day.. the Some day that can come soon.. as I am putting the new BOOK on the TOP of the desk.. I would open the cover of the BOOK.. I see another Picture.. a new Picture of YOU.. I am wondering what does all this means.. so that I can Miss YOU and that I can love you.. if I do.. is it right for me to tell YOU that I miss YOU and that I really really love YOU.. Please.. tell your heart to be open for Me so that I am able to tell you all these things to YOU.. I been reading few of the Pages the Book you gave Me.. Pulling out the Piece of Paper.. I am trying to write the Summary of what the Book is telling me.. of course if YOU are asking me do I enjoy reading this BOOK.. I would tell YOU.. the BOOK has just too many pages to read.. and I would flip through the pages because some of the things that is Telling me is truly boring to read.. it is Like.. why do I needs to know about this Information.. this Historical portion and I would be scratching my Head.. wants to yank my hairs Out because I would Yawn and tries to GO back to the Pages.. If I don't understand It.. I would re read it over and over so that I can tell YOU what I think of this Book.. when I take a Pause.. it is YOUR picture.. I would put your Picture next to the Book and I would take a LOOK at YOU.. I would smile and ask.. why is My Heart be burning.. It keeps ON burning whenever I look at YOU.. I feel like this Burning deep inside seems like it never stops ON ME.. DO you think that this is what I call Love.. what do you think about this Heart of Mine when It keeps On burning inside of me.. it is when My eyes takes off the Pages of this BIG BOOK and I turn to LOOK at your Picture.. I rather LOOK at this Picture for Hours and even with the Hours goes By.. I don't think I would ever get tired of LOOKING at YOU just like when I write to YOU.. I never get tired of telling YOU.. Letting YOU know How much I still Love YOU.. I can tell YOU millions of times and I would say.. Let me see your ears please.. can I step a little closer to YOU.. if My Voice can be Loud.. I can lower my voice and even whisper.. Just to tell YOU.. that I miss YOU.. Have been missing YOU for a Long time.. but.. Just wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I can stand Out.. go Out side and even Yell looking at the MOON who is looking.. showing the Face.. My Face and turn to the MOON.. with YOUR NAME.. I can say it Out loud.. I love YOU.. I don't want the MOON think that I am telling It.. that is WHY.. or Not the angels be confused or the neighbors around.. But with YOUR NAME say it and say to YOU I LOVE YOU.. but WOULD you let me be Close.. would you let me come closer to YOU.. would YOU open your Heart and Open your ears to listen.. would you receive the Words I want to tell YOU.. can I tell it to YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. as I am sitting on the chair by the desk.. with the BIG BOOK in front of me.. the BOOK is opened Now with the pages on right and left.. with Letters written as I would try to read the page.. going from chapter to the Next.. looking at the Numbers as I am flipping through the pages of this BOOK.. I would read and Pause.. my eyes would turn to LOOK next to this BOOK is your Picture.. I can't hide your Picture away.. I need your Picture with Me so that It reminds me who I love.. that I be loving YOU for reals.. can I take a Look at your Picture Please.. and it is YOU who left this One picture inside.. I remember before I started to read the Pages of this BOOK.. I called your Number.. and I even told YOU that I have found a Picture of YOU.. of course I would hear a Long Pause on the other side before you would say something about It.. I know that YOU did Not put the Picture here for me.. but when I saw the Picture.. It just helps me with the Pains I am suffering right Now.. I know that We are suppose to meet about a Week for Now.. but It seems like it is taking for ever.. time is ticking so Slow even though I am so Busy trying to Finish this Whole book.. and NO.. I am Not a good reader either.. that is why I had to ask for a delay for two weeks.. as I would try to go back to the Pages.. to read the pages.. it is not that easy for me.. too many difficult words would come around.. I have to pull out the dictionary to find and to understand the meaning of this Word.. and trying to read the sentence to go back to understand what it is telling Me.. I been going through Hardship of looking at the second Book.. which is the dictionary.. I remember you told me.. after I am finished reading the Whole book.. YOU be asking me to write to YOU a Summary of the book.. I have been sitting here.. with this One Piece of Paper in front.. trying to write something.. I am tempted to write about something else instead.. I am trying to think about this Story of this BOOK.. but My mind.. my eyes would LOOK at the Picture instead.. I would look on the ground.. there are few papers that has been rolled into balls.. because I started to write to YOU a Letter from my Heart.. and instead of trying to share about this BOOK.. My Mind and Heart takes me somewhere what My Heart wants to tell YOU.. if you are asking me.. what did I write that I had to roll into balls instead.. Maybe I should write TWO instead.. One that is from me to YOU and the other from the story of this BOOK.. the Summary you wanted to see.. when I would look at the Balls rolled UP from the Pieces of paper.. I would write.. I been missing YOU.. I wish that I can go to the Library.. if I go to that Library.. will I see you there.. would you be at the table the last time I saw YOU at.. but I don't want to show UP like I am spying on YOU because I am Not.. I am showing UP because My Heart misses YOU and I want to see YOU more.. of course.. I decided Not to GO.. but Last Night.. I do remember.. My Heart.. I started to miss YOU.. looking at your Picture.. It would stop me from reading more Pages of this BOOK.. I had to put the BOOK down because I would be missing YOU.. and I was struggling.. and I knew last night.. that was the day I saw you like two weeks Back.. and I would grab the keys.. and I knew.. should I go to the Library.. I know that If I do go.. maybe there is a better chance I will see YOU there.. so I took the keys.. and I went into the car.. and I started the Car to drive But.. I knew.. I should Not.. I am going to be making the mistake of showing UP just too early.. I don't even have the paper of the summary for this BOOK and NO.. I did Not finish the BOOK yet.. so I had to pause and think before.. so I did Not drive the Car.. I came Out of the car and stood Out side.. and I would LOOK UP at the sky.. LOOKING Above me is the MOON.. as I am looking at the MOON.. I would Open my Heart and Open my Mouth LOOKING at the Moon.. I would say.. what am I doing.. I know that I made a Promise to YOU.. and YOU gave me two weeks.. even though YOU wanted to Meet sooner.. I know that if I showed UP.. and I am Not ready to show you the presentation.. and If you were to ask me about the BOOK.. and If you say.. did I finish the BOOK.. and I am sure you would say.. why ask for two weeks if I am able to share Now and makes me a Liar.. I don't want YOU to see me as that Kind of a Person when ALL I wanted to say is that I missed YOU.. I been missing YOU for a while Now.. and why can't I just show UP just to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. but.. would Your Heart be opened to receive.. will your Ears be opened to hear the Words I need to say.. But I know that My Heart truly needs to tell YOU.. that I really Love YOU.. YOU may Not believe me.. or the Words Yet.. YOU may think that I am Not being serious about the situation or about My Heart to YOU.. but.. YOU do not have to believe anything Yet.. because I know that In time everything can change that.. there will be a TIME when YOU WILL Finally understand and able to receive when the TIME is right.. that is why I am Not asking it for today.. I am Not asking it for Now.. but I believe.. there will be a TIME you will know the truth.. that the TRUTH will do Its work and will set it Free.. Set me free because I am Not lying.. just sharing just the way it is and has been in my Heart.. that I love YOU.. what More words can I say to YOU that I been loving YOU.. and I would Be looking UP at the MOON.. just pouring from My Heart and speaking.. of course YOU are Not there to listen is the Problem.. that YOU are not there to hear these words of Mine.. that YOU just don't know yet how much I love YOU.. and as I would be sitting on this Chair by the desk in my room.. I am just looking back.. thinking back of what has taken its place.. and I am looking at the Picture.. Your Picture that is Next to this Big Book.. I wish that YOU could see me like this.. only if YOU are able to see me Now.. how can I get YOU to know that I been thinking of YOU.. that I am doing my Part.. that I am reading through these pages.. which It was not my choice.. if I go back where I saw YOU at the Library.. I would of chosen a Different Book.. and something much more Smaller with Pages.. and I would show YOU.. can I read this One instead.. and I can write YOU the Summary on piece of paper and tell you about the story I read of this book.. but.. it was Out of Nowhere.. sitting on the table.. across from YOU.. with a Smile.. YOU would push this BIG BOOK.. I wanted to be your Friend.. a reading club.. and it took me by a

LOOKING on the side.. next and wants to skip looking at the pages instead.. I enjoy and Love looking at your Picture.. I feel bubbly inside and sometimes my eyes wants to cry looking at YOU.. I would say.. I be seeing you soon.. Next week.. and to see YOU SMILE will be the greatest moment for me to look at YOU.. when I see YOU.. I come into the Library.. with the Piece of paper written with the Summary.. holding the Big BOOK to tell YOU I have read it all.. Now here is the piece of paper.. sharing my summary about this BOOK.. and I would tell YOU.. I have written YOU another Paper.. but it has nothing to do with the BOOK but it comes from My Heart.. can I please read the Letter to YOU instead.. Please Open your ears to listen.. and Open your Heart to receive the Words.. then I will give you the Paper.. the Letter that is written from Me.. and when YOU Miss me.. YOU can read it over.. re read it if YOU have too.. but read it when YOU miss Me.. that is HOW you know that I love YOU.. I just wanted to say that I love YOU.. and If you are asking me what DO I love you the Most.. that I see that YOU love Books.. Just as much as I am starting to enjoy and Love reading BOOKS.. so that I can kiss your Forehead.. your Intelligent is what I am kissing.. the Smart that is Inside your Brains because I am going to be very smart for YOU.. as I would turn to look at the Pages of the Book.. I would look at the letters and I would start to read once again.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking of the story about this Book but More for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU and share with YOU.. so you will know that some day.. it is because I love YOU.. that One day SOON.. your Heart will know I love YOU.. and I just want to draw closer to YOU and tell you from My Heart.. How much I really Love YOU and that I have never stopped but always loved YOU STILL.. The Word I love you is the Only word that Comes to my Mind.. comes from my Heart.. only the words I can say when I see YOU.. when can I see you again.. Please tell me that it be soon.. I am looking at the book.. the Pages are just to big.. over 800 pages to read.. but I know that I must read it to keep the friendship going.. what if I want more than your Friendship.. because I felt something More than just friends.. if you call me a Friend.. I think that I must reject It.. I must be Honest and truthful to YOU.. that I want More than just your friendship.. I want your Heart.. I want to be Your Lover.. can I be the One who can say and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I would look at the book.. My Mind would go back.. my mind would think back to the Library.. the Place where I first saw YOU.. the Place where I bumped into YOU.. even though my Mind is going back to the Library.. I know that I needs to start reading this Book.. I know that we made a deal.. YOU told me that I needs to share after I read this Book.. but do you Not see the pages.. LOOK at the size of this Book.. did I even tell YOU that I am Not a book worm.. I don't even like to read much of the Books.. and if you were to ask me how many Books I read in the Past.. I think the Numbers would be so much less and YOU be so shocked of the truth.. I am Not of a reader but just a beginner to read a Book.. I meet YOU and I ran into YOU.. and YOU dropped many books.. I could see that YOU love to read a lot of Books.. but.. I did Not tell you the truth because I did Not want to lose Your touch.. I did Not want to see you pushing me away just because I don't read.. But Now.. since I am a part of the Book club.. what if I can't read all of these more than 800 pages of this Big Book.. as I start to flip from One page to the next page.. I am wondering do they have any pictures where I can look.. maybe I can start by looking.. and as I start to flip few pages down this Big book.. I stop on a page.. there is a Picture.. One Picture and as I grab to take the Look of the Picture.. I flip to take a Look.. it is the Photo Picture of YOU.. I am wondering.. is it YOU who has place this Photo picture in here.. I don't remember me asking for Your Picture.. did I ask for the Picture and YOU gave it to Me.. and was it I who put the Picture in between these two pages.. I am sitting on this Chair.. in my Room.. trying to think about if it was Me.. I am Not sure.. because now I feel so confused.. what if it was I who placed it here.. what if It was not me but was it YOU then.. did YOU know that I was going to be taking this Book Home.. I never asked for Your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK back of the Photo Picture.. there is a Number written on it.. whose Number is this.. Is this Your Number.. was this all planned ahead of time knowing that I was going to take this Book home or just out of Nowhere.. I am wondering.. of course I do Love this Photo Picture.. from time to time.. after reading this Big Book and I get tired.. I can turn to LOOK at your Photo Picture and to relax my mind.. and to Love YOU.. maybe this is the main reason why I had to lie to YOU.. could not tell you the truth.. could Not be honest with YOU because.. it was My Heart.. it was YOU.. the first glance.. when I turned to LOOK at YOU.. and yes.. it was me who ran into YOU knowing YOU were heading my direction.. I had to get Your Attention because I wanted to get to YOU.. there was something about YOU that my eyes just can't stop looking.. there was something about the Time.. the Place where you put it the Most.. I saw you from the distance walking with your friend.. I looked around and I wanted to start reading Books.. I saw in your arms.. YOU were holding many books.. something about that Time.. where you put your focus the Most.. and where you put your eyes and Your Heart into.. I looked over knowing that YOU are going to be some one very special.. some one very Hard to find.. that is different from myself but.. at the same time.. I can learn to change and adapt to situation.. any circumstances because I am not afraid to try some thing New.. that is when I told myself.. I needs to get to YOU.. before some one else will come and Love YOU.. I know that there are so many Young men in this world.. who would Loves to be in my shoes.. who would try to get to YOUR Heart.. so that is when I told my self.. go to your direction and run.. bump into YOU.. but Not hurt you.. just enough where you can feel something to get to YOUR HEART.. I just wanted to say I am sorry if I got to YOU in a wrong way because that was Not my intention.. I just wanted to be a part and to be close to YOU.. Not to hurt YOU or scare YOU.. because I am Not a creep.. I am Not a weirdo either.. just a Man who wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. making this Kind of Move.. and also.. knowing my own weakness of Not to Love to read Books is at my fault but.. I told YOU.. if I love you.. I know that I can change.. I know that I can even adapt to this change.. Not to impress YOU but just to be close.. just to let YOU know that I love YOU.. but.. I know that I was Not right with YOU.. as I am sitting down on this chair.. in the Room close to my desk.. I have this Picture.. the Photo Picture.. I am wondering.. what if I did Not say Yes.. I am wondering.. what would happen to this Photo Picture.. if some one else came and sat on my place.. because I don't remember I be asking YOU.. or was it I who asked you that I needed your Picture.. as I am trying to read these pages.. I was flipping through the pages trying to look for some Historical Pictures.. some comes in the Black and White Photo Pictures.. but for some reason.. as I was flipping through the pages of this BIG BOOK of 800 pages.. I found this Photo Picture.. It is Your Picture because the One who is in the Photo Picture is YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. the Flower looks so lovely and yes.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I can stay here.. I can sit here and just look at your Photo Picture all day Long and Never get tired of it.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. was it YOU put it here.. and if it was YOU.. can I call this Number.. is this Number Your Phone Number.. and I know that it is pretty late.. so that I am not going to call YOU or disturb YOU late into the Night.. as I am looking at your Photo Picture.. I would put it on the Top of the desk.. and I would flip the pages back to the first Chapter.. and I would start to read from the Chapter 1.. and I would look through the first line sentence.. and as I would look across and going down.. it is written small but so much to read even the first Page of this first chapter.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. did YOU even finished this Whole 800 pages of the Book.. this Big Book.. I wanted to ask.. I wanted to know so that we can be on the right pages on the same book.. I grabbed the Phone.. it is late but Not too late to sleep late.. so as I look at the back of the Photo Picture.. I would dial the number which is written in the back.. and as I would wait.. I do hear the ringing on the Other side.. and I would wait and wait.. I do hear on the other side.. I hear your voice.. and I tell YOU.. Do you remember me?? of course YOU don't know my number.. so I would say.. It is the Guy YOU met at the Library.. the One you gave the Big Book.. with the 800 pages and the Historical figure story.. and Of course you remember.. and I would say.. as I was looking through the Pages.. I wanted to know if it had the Black and white Photo pictures and started to flip through many pages.. and I stopped at One where I found your Photo Picture.. and when I grabbed to take a LOOK at it.. it was YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. I have never seen such a beautiful Flower.. and YOU are even more Beautiful than the Flower you were holding.. and I was Not sure if making this Call be right or wrong.. but I just wanted to check something.. and I hear you say something.. of course.. I am so sorry for calling you this late but I have a One Question.. I wanted to check to see and ask YOU

Thinking about YOU.. so if I am suppose to meet YOU in three weeks later.. for three weeks.. to me it feels like a Long time to see YOU.. what if I start to miss YOU.. and I know that I needs to see YOU.. DO I call your Number just to hear your Voice.. but I know that I can't just do that.. so as I would take the Big BOOK in my hands.. and I flipped.. I am truly touched.. My Heart just melted as I am looking at the first page.. I asked YOU if YOU finished reading this.. and YOU told me that YOU did.. and YOU have read this Whole BOOK.. I am truly touched and truly Impressed by.. because right Now.. I am trying to read the first line sentence and I would start to yawn.. but I know that I have a deadline and I have promised you and YOU told me that I must and meet you on that day.. so I would start to focus.. as I would start to read the first page of this chapter.. as I would read he first page and I would flip the page to the next.. Just looking at the size and the thickness.. it is a lot of pages.. which I have never read this much of pages in my life.. But.. I know that I love YOU.. I must finish reading.. but my eyes would wander off.. as I am looking at the next page.. my eyes seems more interested of looking at Your Photo Picture.. my hand grabs to take a Look.. and I want to see YOU again.. I want to see you soon.. but three weeks later seems like it is just too long for me.. I should of said how about two weeks.. maybe two weeks could of been a better choice.. so that I don't miss YOU.. so that I can look at you closer and be as near as possible to YOU.. How can I get close.. but in order for me to get close to YOU and to love you close.. I must do my part to show YOU.. I am a man who keeps my Word.. when I make a Promise to YOU.. I try to keep that promises and m word when I tell YOU I will do something on your belong.. to keep YOU closer to My Heart.. but My eyes.. keeps on wandering off.. it does Not like to LOOK at the Page of this Book.. but rather focus and concentrate on YOU.. your Photo Picture.. please tell me why is this happening to Me.. why does Love must be this Hard sometimes.. some times It feels so impossible to reach.. but.. LOOKING at How much time YOU put into.. and How you had to read this Whole Book.. this 800 pages of it.. it brings me to shame on me if I can't finish it.. as I would turn to look at this Page.. I would be reading from the top of the sentences and my eyes goes across and to the next line.. and to the next line until it goes down to the end of the page.. I would turn to look at another page.. If I love YOU.. and it has taken you a long time to read and to finish.. I would try to read again.. but my Mind.. my eyes keeps on looking.. why can't you see what I am going through.. even though I wants to concentrate on what Must I needs to do.. I keep on reaching.. I keep on looking for Your Photo Picture.. my hand just cannot keep away from YOU.. my hand touch and grabs Your Photo Picture.. I know that I should stop.. and try to put Your Picture Away.. or stick it on the pages of this Big book but I know that when it comes to Loving YOU.. I just can't.. I just won't because My Heart keeps on searching to LOOK at YOU.. I feel like YOU are the Only One who can make me smile.. Over and Over.. I find the true Joy when It comes looking at YOU and just telling myself.. my Heart that I love YOU.. that I just can't Let YOU go.. my Heart just can't Let YOU go.. that when I try to put it away.. I start to miss YOU.. and missing YOU brings more pain then ever.. so I have to Put your Photo Picture near me.. just knowing that YOU are close when YOU are so Far away.. as I would Look at the clock.. Looking at the Time.. I can see that Now it has become late into the Night.. where I needs to close this Big BOOK and needs to sleep.. so I would shut the Big Book in front of me.. and Putting on top of the Desk.. my Hand cannot let go of Your Photo Picture.. I know I needs to see YOU.. the More I see you in this Photo Picture.. it is so much harder for me to let it Go.. My Heart be missing you.. my eyes be missing YOU.. and I just miss everything about YOU.. as I look at your Photo Picture.. I will say to Your Picture.. I love YOU.. I know that YOU may Not able to hear it right Now.. but I wanted to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am able to tell YOU.. I know that you cannot hear me.. that is why I say it.. I tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. I am sitting by the desk.. Looking at the Book.. I opened the Book.. trying to focus to read this Page.. for some reason.. YOU keep on showing UP in my Mind.. I can feel My Heart Beating faster when I think of YOU.. trying to tell My Heart to stop beating so Fast.. I needs to erase YOU off my Mind.. I have your Picture laying on the TOP of this desk.. I know that I should put it away.. because I know that when I turn my Head and I look towards your Picture.. I know that I would think of YOU first.. but I have this ONE BOOK.. and I went to the Library to borrow it.. I am still stuck with the first Page.. the first chapter and whenever My eyes tries to read the first line sentence of this first page.. I would turn my Head towards your Picture and I get stuck right there looking at YOU.. I can feel my Heart beating fast from the Inside.. and My hand.. into the fist wants to Beat down on the chest.. so that I can stop hearing.. or feeling the Beating so Fast of this Heart.. I would turn to look at your Picture and tries to put the face Down.. turning the Picture over so that I don't look at your Beautiful face of this Picture.. my hand just can't.. I am shivering and shaking.. my hand whenever I touch the picture.. My Heart wants to cry every time I turn the Picture over so that I don't look at YOU.. why am I so addicted to YOU.. it is like a Cup of Coffee.. I just can't stop.. I tell myself I needs to stop because but I just don't.. Please tell me How to stop.. because My Heart keeps on beating so Fast.. when My Head turns to look at YOUR picture.. my eyes looks at YOU.. I can feel my Heart.. the beating grows faster and Louder I hear My Heart keep on crying and calling Out Your Name.. I am spinning around and around because It feels so crazy all of the sudden Attack that has been happening to me recently.. but I have borrowed this One Book.. and I do remember YOU are telling me that YOU loved this Book.. and Have read many times.. and the Next time we meet at the Library.. YOU are asking me if I can share and tell you the story about what I felt about this Book that came from YOU.. so I am trying Hard at this Point.. to get it right.. to go on this Pace.. I saw YOU smiling and YOU asked me.. can we be Library Partners.. and I am thinking what is that.. I do remember asking YOU.. what is the meaning of being the Library Partners.. YOU smile so Big and told me that we can share the Books we read together.. I can share my Heart and my thoughts to YOU about the BOOK and that YOU also able to give your Point of view.. I remember our hands touched and we shake our hands being the Library Friends.. of course that is How I left the Library.. but for some reason.. I asked you another before I left the Library.. I asked.. can I have your Picture.. and I am speaking to my own Head.. why would I ask you this if we are Just Friends.. YOU SMILED and gladly given me a Picture of YOU.. I was shocked that YOU did because I wanted to see if YOU would really give me Your Picture.. of course at the Library.. YOU were holding a Book and told me.. YOU have just finished reading this One BOOK that was in your hands.. and it can be a start and gave me the Book.. of course I would look at the title and I would look at the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring.. it is a History BOOK.. I did so horrible when I have taken the History class because It was so Boring and it felt Like I was going back to school.. I guess.. of course YOU are so Beautiful.. I did not decline it because I wanted to show YOU that I can be Your Library Partner.. my Heart came alive after we shaken our hands.. it was my first day going to the Library and Never expected to Meet YOU.. SO Beautiful.. I felt something in my Heart.. I do not know what it was but I felt My Heart.. it Bumped into something.. LIKE the Beating was very fast I felt.. I am trying to read this History Book.. about someone's Life.. I do not like the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring to Me but I know that I Must.. I would read the Back.. it seems interesting but.. at the same time It seems like a BORING story to Me.. I am trying to read the first line of the sentence.. I am yawning Out loud.. My Head turns too keep on looking at your picture.. YOUR Picture is more exciting to Me.. because I just can't pass the first Line of the sentence of this BOOK.. What have YOU done to Me.. I am also asking myself a question.. am I making the right decision.. Usually when I make a decision.. I try to keep it all the way.. but this.. It be hard.. I am flipping through the pages.. and It also got pictures.. black and white pictures of the Old Times.. and I know.. it is Not going to be easy for me to finish this Book.. but.. I have made a promise to YOU.. that we are going to be meeting next week.. the same Hour at the Same Library and I needs to be ready to share what I think about this Book.. to continue this Partnership.. I must be ready to share it to YOU.. I am trying to drink cold glass Ice water.. my eyes are being Heavy.. I want to sleep instead.. My Head turns to LOOK at your Picture.. my hand touches the Picture.. holds the Picture and I would look at Your Closer from this Picture YOU gave me.. I would be thinking of YOU.. that I am so excited to see YOU again.. and I would turn too look at the page of this Book.. I would flip it back to the first Chapter one.. and I am asking YOU.. Looking at your Picture

Impression.. even though I have Nothing to prove myself to YOU.. but.. I do want to keep my Promise to YOU.. I have already decided to read this BOOK.. as I would sit.. LOOKING at Your Picture.. I would close the Book.. and I would think about the experience of meeting YOU.. holding Your Picture in my Hand.. I do remember I be walking into the Library.. did Not expect much to happen that day but just to borrow a Book.. as I would walk and I see YOU.. why did I stop.. there is a lot of People in the Library.. but I saw YOU walking.. with a Friend YOU were talking.. and I wanted to get Your Attention but.. HOW.. as YOU and Your Friend passes me by.. I would act like I did Not see YOU and I bumped into YOU.. as the Books You were holding in your hands falls to the Floor.. I would help you by picking UP the Books that is laying on the ground.. as YOU stood UP with your Friend.. I grabbed the last Book.. and I would rise UP and I give it into your hands.. Your Friend had many books in her hands holding the BOOKS you were carrying.. I looked at YOU.. and I said sorrow.. as I watch YOU pass me By with your Friend.. at a table YOU sat with her.. I knew this is the Only Chance.. I may Never see YOU again.. who knows when YOU will come to this Library.. and as I walked UP to the table.. of course.. I saw YOU Looking UP with your Friend.. and the two of YOU were sharing.. I asked if I can join this table.. and Just wanted to ask you One question.. How to join this Group.. and your friend looks at Me and she smiles and YOU look at me with a Big Smile.. YOU be telling me that to join this club.. a BOOK CLUB.. I needed to read the books YOU and your friend was reading and to part take.. to share.. as I pulled the chair Over and I sat across YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. share what.. and I see YOU laying the BIG BOOKS on the top of the table.. It is so much to read.. a lot of pages to read I am thinking.. and every Week.. YOU and your Friend would meet at this table and would share.. and I am thinking.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Not just beautiful but also so Smart.. if YOU are reading all of these Books.. there is so much YOU can share with Others I believe and the Friend looks at me.. and she smiles.. as I look down.. there is a Line of People.. and they are standing behind YOU.. where is all of these People coming from.. and I see YOU turn to LOOK back.. they are Your Partners.. I am thinking.. there is a lot of People who wants to be Your Friend and be Your Partner.. it is because YOU are so Smart.. Not just beautiful.. But so Smart too.. as I am thinking about the day.. I know that I wanted to see YOU.. and I want to tell YOU what My Heart feels.. I want to tell YOU what my Heart Thinks and what it feels right Now.. can I share with YOU what I think when I look at your Picture.. when I see YOU again.. can I tell YOU my story of HOW MUCH I love YOU.. I can tell YOU a lot.. share you a lot More when I look at YOU.. when I look at you in the Picture.. I want to close the BOOK.. and open my Heart to YOU.. my Heart can be a Book.. has pages of letters to tell YOU that I LOVE YOU.. will you let me share my Heart to YOU.. Please tell me that I am able to open my Heart.. that YOU will have ears to Listen so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and for the whole week.. I been missing YOU.. it drives me crazy when I miss YOU.. when I look at your Picture.. and I think of YOU.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I love you and want you so Bad.. I love you and need you so Bad.. I love you and I miss YOU over and over again because when it comes to YOU.. when it is all about YOU.. I can open my Heart with letters and the pages of the letters can say that I love YOU.. I feel it in my heart and in my soul that I can't never stop but keep on loving YOU over and over again.. will you please let me Open my Heart to YOU.. My Heart is dying.. I am dying.. without YOU I know that I am dying and that is why I needs to say it.. I needs to tell YOU something.. that has been written in my Heart all about YOU that Only YOU can erase the pages of Letters that is written in my Heart just for YOU.. why can't YOU open YOUR Heart to accept it.. I am Not asking YOU much.. but it is this Simple.. to Open Your Heart for me.. to Let me In.. Please let me In and Let me write in your Heart and tell Your Heart that I love YOU.. as I am sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the BOOK.. I been flipping through the pages and I can feel my Heart be burning from the Inside.. I know like this BOOK.. like the pages that makes it into this BOOK.. the written words on the Pages like Letters.. when It is ALL about YOU.. when it is for YOU.. when My Heart and My Mind thinks of YOU.. I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I can tell you more than these pages of the 800 pages of this Book.. as long as it is YOU.. I know that I can share and write and tell YOU more.. because it comes from my Heart which I wanted to say even till Now.. I love YOU.. you do not know how much I love YOU but even till this Day.. YOU Know my Heart.. ever since the first day till Now.. I been loving YOU and still I love YOU.. You told me to come and wait for you.. I wanted to know the answers why YOU wanted to break UP with me.. last night.. I just could not sleep at all.. I wanted answers.. and I wanted to know if it was me.. is it because I wasn't the One.. is it because YOU have met someone new.. before I can close and shut.. I had to know why you wanted to leave me.. so I remember messaging YOU back.. asking YOU to meet me at the spot.. the same table.. at the Library.. I even told YOU that I am going to write YOU a Letter.. a Letter that I haven't written in a long time.. I do remember when I first met YOU.. and we started to date each Other.. My Heart.. I just don't know what it was about YOU.. but My Heart.. I would be going into the House.. with a Smile that I just could Not.. looking in the Mirror.. going into the rest room.. and turning on the lights.. I would look at myself in the mirror.. wondering what is matter with my Heart.. that I just could Not stop smiling after seeing YOU.. after meeting YOU.. after leaving.. just being close to YOU.. My Heart just could not take it that I had to leave YOU.. I am sitting on the table.. with the Book you gave me.. I am sitting by the table where we met for the first time.. as I open the front cover of the Book.. there is Your Picture.. and behind the Picture is the Letter I have written for YOU.. I am looking at the Picture.. thinking about going to the fair park.. YOU wanted me to get YOU a Big Bear.. a Brown Big Bear and I do remember winning the contest and able to get this Big Brown Bear.. I am looking at the Picture.. YOU were smiling and holding on the side of this Big brown Bear.. I just could not help it.. but tears.. why do you want to end this relationship.. why is it so Hard to let YOU go when we been through so much together.. I am sitting here quietly waiting for YOU.. I wanted to see YOU and meet eyes to eyes.. I want to hear from your voice.. I wanted the answers of why can't I be loving YOU any more.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to break UP with me.. do you not know that it is Me who is hurting the most.. I am still wondering.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of pains in my Heart.. please tell me what have I done so that I know that if it is right.. I can truly walk away and Not to bother YOU.. Not to love you anymore.. I have written YOU a Letter.. if YOU open the folded Letter which is in Half.. I wrote last Night.. I was looking at Your Picture.. the One you would tell me.. after I took this picture of YOU holding the side of this Big Brown Bear.. YOU told me with a Big Smile.. that YOU loved me.. I just could Not believe the Words I heard.. from your own lips.. from your Own words YOU have expressed and confessed the Love.. I did not hear it before.. it would be me who be telling YOU.. many times I would send.. write letters to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I miss YOU.. that I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my life.. that can it be YOU.. can it be Me who can love you forever and tell YOU that I do love YOU.. and to confess and express.. being thankful for the chance that I get to say and to share that I love YOU.. but Now.. YOU are telling me that YOU wanted to leave.. to break UP this relationship.. I am still waiting.. sitting by the table.. and I asked you if we can meet.. I been waiting for more than two hours Now.. and still I don't see you.. as I am looking at the people.. they are walking into the Library.. some holding books.. while others are going into other tables.. I see some people sitting on chairs by the tables.. some by the computers.. I am waiting for YOU.. and I am wondering.. should I call YOU.. am I suppose to call you and ask YOU when will you come.. are you even coming at all.. and I look down.. looking at the Book.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. and when I lift UP my head to look.. I see you have finally come.. but who is that.. as I see you holding hands with another Man.. and YOU are smiling.. WHY are you going to do this to Me.. why are you bringing another Man into the picture.. and I see you stop by the table.. and I stand UP.. I see you pull the chair and YOU sit.. the Man next to YOU.. He smiles and pulls the chair and He sits next to you.. I am wondering.. DO I needs to hear this because Now I know.. I get the picture.. I know your answers now.. It is because of Someone else.. do YOU even love Him.. if YOU love him.. then why are you hurting Me.. did YOU ever loved Me.. why did YOU show up like this.. is it because YOU wanted to hurt Me.. to destroy my Heart.. YOU know that I also have a Heart.. and I learned how to love YOU with my Heart.. it took me a long time to learn but Now I know that I love YOU.. but what YOU are doing is so wrong.. because I did not want to come here if YOU came to show me what It means to

MAH MAH.. I am looking at the 2nd Line Top General.. and I am holding the sword.. and I would run and I jump into the Air with the Sword in my hand and swing Forward.. the Blades hit each other.. as he would swing the Sword back at me.. I land on the ground.. and I turn to Look back.. and I would jump back Kick and I would swing the Sword in my hand.. the Blades Hit each Other.. he does a front Kick and Hits my chest.. and I fall on the ground.. as I see my Sword next to me.. the Seven Friends of mine are in the back.. they would all Pull out the swords to Fight.. but I would grab the sword and raising UP the right Arm.. the swords goes back into the sheath and as I turn to LOOK at YOU behind.. YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who are standing along side with the Seven friends of Mine.. I get UP slowly.. and the 2nd top Line general is standing with his Men.. the Generals and they are all smiling as I get UP slowly.. I have Lost before to this Man.. this Time.. I just can't Lose this Battle.. and I would grab the Sword.. and I would run UP and the 2nd rank General grabs his Sword and WE swing the Swords at each other.. Blades Hit and Hit.. I can hear the sound of the CLANG of the blade of the swords Hitting.. and I would go back as the 2nd rank General moves forward swinging the sword at me.. I would Counter block as the Blades Hit and I would duck and sweep the Leg and he falls to the ground.. the Seven Friends of Mine raises UP the Swords shouting.. and I jump into the Air with the Sword.. ready to Stab but I stop.. we are in the same Team.. How can we fight against each other.. the Seven Generals would all pull out their swords and they circle AROUND ME.. I see YOU walking forward.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. YOU pull out the Sword and YOU Point.. the Generals all put their Swords Down.. and I would Put the sword Down as well.. the 2nd Top rank General gets UP on the Floor.. and Puts the sword Down.. and He kneels.. and two Knees goes.. and I just can't believe this.. In front of the CROWN PRINCESS.. In front of the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we are fighting for Nothing.. for What and I would kneel.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down.. arm raise up forward.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you stop.. with the Big Crown on top of the Head.. wearing the white Dress and YOU would look at the 2nd Top rank General.. and His head Looks on the ground.. with the Seven Generals.. they all fall down before YOU.. two knees and raises UP the voices.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. We are so Sorry for this.. and the Seven friends of Mine.. they all fall before YOU.. two knees.. Heads all look on the ground.. arms raises UP forward.. saluting as the TOP Commander.. and I see you Pointing the sword at me.. and I would say.. We have a History.. of having a Bad Blood against.. I remember when I first came to the training Camp.. and the Guard would say to HIM when He was just a general.. that I learned from the Old Man.. the master.. which NO ONE believed Me.. of course NO ONE will believe me.. and HE wanted me to prove that I was really His student learning from a teacher.. so.. I do remember we fought on the training Ground.. I lost using the wooden stick sword.. and he was very good.. and when I was struck Down by the WOOD STICK.. HE saw me on the ground and I couldn't get back UP.. started to Laugh at me and spit at me.. telling me that I am a Liar.. I been holding this grudge for a Long time.. that I know that One day we will meet and today is the day.. of course I never thought I would put him to the floor.. but I knew.. if I can't Now.. I will never if I let him go.. but.. I saw Your Face.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw YOU standing by and In my Heart.. we are under the same Nation.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. and He is also a part of Your Solider.. How can I fight someone who is with YOU.. that is when I saw YOU.. I saw the Big Crown on the top of your Head and started to think.. these are YOUR MEN.. they all belong to YOU.. as the ruler for this Nation.. for this Country.. How can I dare to put a sword to HIS FACE when HE is also a HIGH ranking Officer.. and I realize How fool I have become because I know myself.. HOW Little I am and How Little I must Be.. because I am very small.. that is the Only way I got here today because I started so Small.. WHO am I.. and what am I doing.. and I see YOU looking at me.. I see you putting down the sword.. and I have tears in my eyes.. I do not want to hurt any one.. but if there is a war who is against YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. even though I want Peace and Harmony and Unity and Joy with LOVE.. if someone wants to mess with YOU and YOUR NATION.. your people.. I will fight if I have too.. I will never back DOWN on a fight when it comes to YOU WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and your hands touch my hands.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. WHY would you hold my hands.. why would you touch my hands for.. and I am looking towards the Fence.. I just can't believe my eyes.. and I am looking at children.. Little Boys are walking.. holding hands with their Mothers and Fathers and they stop by the Fences.. and More People are coming as they are stopping by the Fences.. and I am looking.. and I recognize one of them.. there is a man.. and he is around my age.. and I do remember he was a friend growing UP in the garden.. are those people common people from the Garden.. and the Sons.. the Boys are holding little Sticks in their Hands and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. as YOU turn around to LOOK back at the Fences.. and people.. thousands of People who lived in the Garden comes and they all Lower.. face to the ground and they shout.. Please teach Our Sons to fight.. Please teach our daughters to COOK for the Palace.. and my Heart.. I would start to cry more and More.. tears are shedding down hard.. the Night YOU came.. you gave the People their freedom.. many people who were dirt poor had NO HOMES.. medical treatments.. and HOW you called the people from the ROYAL PALACE to go to the Garden.. and How you made the Place a New.. I believe some of the People thought about YOU MAH MAH.. and Now.. LOOK.. look at these People with children.. and Now.. they want to join and repay the debt they had because of you Crown Princess.. the Heart to Love even the MOST UNLOVED people in this world.. THEY just want to pay it back.. Just Like Me.. DO you see My Heart Now.. CROWN PRINCESS.. can you see the Heart that I have for this Nation.. for YOU and Your People.. and the Little Boys are raising UP the Sticks in the air wanting to be a part of the large gathering to Fight for the Nation.. the LITTLE BOYS can grow UP with a Future that Only YOU can give.. because NOW they have come.. LOOK at all those little Children.. they are standing by the Fences.. wanting to JOIN in the Military arts.. as YOU would turn to LOOK at them.. I would say.. this is why I started to Love YOU.. it was the Day when YOU came to the Garden.. People in the Garden had NO HOPES and NO DREAMS.. just POOR.. NO future.. where can the Most Lowest People go.. they do NOWHERE.. I do remember the Day YOU came to the Garden.. from ALL the Places in the world YOU could GO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. from all the Places YOU can Go you came to the Garden.. I am sure the Ones WHO came from the Garden Knows my Heart.. they can relate because we have NO future.. but I have a future with HOPES and DREAMS of Protecting YOU and also defending for this Nation.. and I see YOU walking towards the Fences.. the People would be staying on the ground.. crying as YOU would walk forward.. they like me just wants a chance.. a chance to share something that YOU can bring into their Lives that it will matter for this.. and I am looking on the ground.. Head looking down.. I am wiping my tears with the Arm.. I just can't believe.. the Best friend I grew UP with.. He comes with a SON.. and He wants His SON to join in the Military Arts.. Looking at Me.. and yes.. I will teach that SON of his.. because I know what it means coming from Nothing.. Having Nothing to Lose.. I have Nothing.. BUT YOU gave me a chance.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it was just that ONE chance I truly needed from YOU.. I think back at the Garden.. walking Out of the gates.. I see you ON the Horse.. sitting on the Horse.. and these ROYAL People comes to the Garden.. many sick and dying.. people were so hungry and had nothing to Eat.. no Homes to live.. but YOU came.. rebuilding that Garden and giving People to dream.. I remember after I saw YOU.. and I was touched.. I wanted to give YOU the Flower.. in my hand was One flower that I had.. there was Nothing that I could of give YOU but just that One.. what can a Poor Boy living as homeless can give.. from my Mother's grave.. a Bed of Flower.. a SUN FLOWER was blooming.. I grabbed that and I wanted to say.. YOU are like this FLOWER to me.. as Bright as the SUN.. when you think of a FLOWER.. it just melts YOUR HEART.. it makes you smile as IT melts as you keep on looking at it.. as I saw that Flower.. I remember I ran.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. and I gave it to YOU.. I did Not think that the CROWN PRINCESS would take a Flower from Me.. but I watched.. many people who were hungry and dying.. the sick.. and homeless people.. the Crown PRINCESS has the BIGGEST Heart.. YOU may not know it then but NOW.. LOOK at the Fences.. the People who came from the Garden are here and they want to JOIN with YOU.. LOOK WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH

MAH MAH.. Raise UP the Next Generations of for the Palace.. for the future generations to help you to Conqueror this Nation.. as I am watching YOU.. I see YOU looking at the people by the Fence.. I would raise UP the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE!! to Crown Princess.. HOORAY TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends of Mine picks up their Swords and raise it UP HIGH and Shouts Out.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. now the 2nd top rank General Raises UP his Sword and shouts.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the 7 generals raises UP their swords in the air and says.. HOORAY TO CROWN PRINCESS.. and I see you.. the Crown Princess turning to Look at the military soldiers.. and I would raise UP the Sword in my hand.. tears are just streaming down my face.. MANSAE to Crown PRINCESS.. and everyone.. even the People who came from the Garden all raises UP theirs arms crying in tears says.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. TO WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you holding UP the Sword in the Air.. and Everyone shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and My Heart.. It just can't stop beating.. it keeps on beating and beating as I would be Looking at YOU.. as YOU are standing by the Fences.. hands are touching YOU on the sides.. I see you Open the Fences.. and the people from the Garden.. they start to walk in.. Little Children.. boys and girls want to join in to be with YOU as their Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. I want to see you Success.. My Heart as the Loyal Slave.. as the Servant.. as the Low Born which My Father was the Head of the Servant.. as I am sitting in the Small room.. the Older Man.. the Teacher gave me a small table and I am with a Paper.. with the Ink I would write to the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. I have been living in this Place.. the Older man who has become my Teacher has told me that He wanted me as the Son.. so I have become his adopted Son.. and He has been teaching me for Years.. and I would be looking at the Pen Brush and dip into the Ink Pot.. I have never stopped dreaming of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I have been practicing the Art of Swordsmanship.. and Also the Archer Shooting.. the Older man who has become the Teacher.. He would spend Hours helping me to learn this Military Arts and has told me to write a Letter to the Crown Princess.. so I am about to leave this Place with the Official Letter which was sealed with his Stamp allowing me to step Out and go forward.. telling me that through the Years.. He has watched me grow my skills of the Art of swordsmanship and the practice tactic of the Military Arts and with this Official Letter seal that I am able to pass over and go into the Training Camp without going into the training ground.. He has revealed to me that He was an EX COMMANDER for the King.. he was at the Most Highest Place in the ranking of the Office in the Palace and showed me the sword of which He has won many Battles for YOUR FATHER the KING PEH HA.. I was shocked when I found this Out because He showed me the Sword.. which he took many lives and He knew my Grand father who was also the Chief General.. who also became the Commander and was Brothers in War and together they led many Victories in the Battles when Enemies rose against the Nation.. the Teacher told me.. the Older Man who is my teacher told me that I must Protect YOU.. and also Needed to defend because HE remembers you.. He knows my father who was the Head servant and saw YOU when YOU were Young with my Grandfather and knew.. Later down the Line.. Both would say.. the COMMANDERS would say YOU are going to rule.. that YOU are going to be the Head of the Nation.. that YOU are the next in Line to be at the RULING SPOT.. that YOU are going to be the QUEEN KING.. the Ruler who rules it all.. and when the Older man.. the Teacher saw me with the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. he looked at me and asked.. and I told the Teacher.. the Older man who you are.. I told Him.. I love YOU.. and that the reason why I am here.. and that the reason why I am going to you has never changed in my heart but keeps Loving YOU.. the Older man.. the teacher said to me.. CROWN PRINCESS right.. I told him.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I sat next to HIM and told him the story of How I saw YOU.. where I met YOU.. and it was at the Garden.. and how you came to visit the Garden One Night.. I already had Your Picture then.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I heard the men servants walking.. with the Many Foot soldiers.. the Special Body Guards and the Guards who all came that night.. I heard a Voice.. I was in the Garden Looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and I heard a Noise.. a shouting and there was a gate I would open to LOOK.. sitting on the Horse.. YOU were wearing a White Dress.. I was holding the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. but did Not know that it was YOU.. the MEN Servants looks at me.. the Crown Princess.. and I just could not believe.. from the Palace.. who is going to rule and be the Head over the Nation.. I am at the Most Lowest Place.. the SON of the Head servant.. and I fell down on my face DOWN and I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am so sorry I did not Know who YOU are.. and the Guards rush and fell on fours and Your Legs on the back of a Guards.. the maid servants who came to rush for your hands and helps you to walk.. every one went FACE DOWN to the Ground.. I just could not believe it.. why would you come to this Garden.. it is only for the Poor and the Lowest people who lives here.. why would you care for people who are born into the Most lowest comes to a shabby place.. I felt my Heart.. My Heart started to beat so fast.. and I saw YOU stand and stopped next to me.. the maid servant tells me that I can raise UP.. and I was able to stand before YOU.. YOU are so beautiful.. and One hand I had a Flower.. the Other hand is the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and your eyes were looking at both hands so I would raise it up to show you.. YOU looked at the Art sketch paper.. the drawing of YOU.. the Maid servant looks at me.. and the eyes told me I can be in danger because of this.. and I remember I told YOU this very night.. if I have offended you HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU want me to rip this Art Sketch paper into pieces.. I can do it for YOU.. if you want me to be Locked in Prison and I die for this.. I can die for YOU.. before you make up your Mind to do something please let me share something from my Heart.. I am Not afraid to Die.. I am always ready to die.. I will anyways die either Now or Later but I still will die.. but one thing that I wanted to say.. I been loving YOU for a while Now.. it may not be much to YOU but this is ALL I have to have to Love.. if you want to Lock me UP now.. Please CROWN PRINCESS.. Lock me UP now.. and I saw YOU just looking at me and gave me a smile.. and I remember you wanted me to see the Garden.. and that was the day I would walk next to YOU to give you a tour of this Garden.. which it was to show YOU in the first place.. I told my Father when he was alive that I wanted to do something to this Garden.. and showing my Father the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. that I know that the Crown Princess may stop by one day.. HE looked at me like I am very crazy.. I would beg my father to help me to making this Garden to be a special Place.. what if the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH shows UP.. I believe the Crown Princess will come.. and My Father who was alive at that time laughs at me.. the ROYALITY and the Palace Life.. this is a SHABBY Place.. only for the Poorest People stay here and I would cry before HIM asking HIM.. to Help me to rebuild this Garden.. I know that the Crown Princess.. as I saw YOU with the White Dress.. I would stand with in awe and My lines of tears ran down because YOU did Come.. I just could not believe that It would happen because it just Can't but that Night.. the Night MAH MAH came.. I fell in love with YOU harder because that is when I knew.. you also cared about the poor people.. the Lowest of lives who lives here.. people who has no place to stay or to live.. as the gates OPENED and I would walk with YOU next to me.. the Crown Princess.. I just knew that YOU were so Special.. that YOU were so different because YOU even came here.. the POOR people all came Out.. NO HOMES.. living in straw homes.. people were dirty and smelly.. and I lived with these people.. but when YOU showed UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU looked around.. and people all came crying.. and they fell on the Face Down.. MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. MAH MAH and I fell on the Face on the Ground and I started to SOBB.. crying and pouring out from my Heart.. and I was thinking about my Father.. if you came a little earlier.. My Father could of believed Me because he left to another place.. and I just could Not believe to see your Big Heart for these kinds of people.. the Lowly people.. and I would be thinking about this past as I am sharing to the Older Man.. the teacher.. and I would put the Ink Brush down after I wrote you a Letter to take.. the Older Man.. the Teacher looks at me.. and telling me it is time for me to Go and I know that I must go to Protect YOU.. to stay by your Side.. to be close to YOU.. to show YOU that I am there to watch YOU to succeed to the Highest Place.. to see YOU at the TOP SPOT.. and the Older man.. the Teacher gives me His sword.. and gives me

MAH MAH.. Head down and Arm straight forward.. I just can't believe.. thinking of the Older man.. the Teacher.. who taught me everything.. swinging swords and defending.. and when I told the past story of How you came to the garden to the Poorest People living in the Garden.. and he started to cry.. That is why YOU are going to RULE the Nation.. that is why YOU are going to be the NeXT BIG RULER.. because YOU love and care for the people.. and my tears started to fall hitting on the Ground.. I saw YOU walking down.. from the distance.. and How much I missed YOU.. and it was so Long since the last when we were young.. I remember at the Garden.. you saw the People.. POOR children walking and YOU looked around and people gathered around YOU.. sick people came too.. and I heard you telling.. to rebuild this Garden.. and I stood.. face down to the ground and kept on crying.. and Now.. I know the true reason why I loved YOU and still loving YOU keeps on growing stronger each day passes by.. it is because YOU care and love.. even the broken people.. even a LOW person like myself.. I.. my Words are so speechless Now.. My Words can't come Out right now.. and I lifted UP my Head and I looked straight.. there is guard siting at the Table.. who is telling the MEN to go.. that it is finished.. and has to wait for the Next Year around.. as I am looking at the Two Letters.. and the Friend who is with me.. My Heart breaks.. I really wanted to see YOU Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I really wanted to tell you who I am.. the boy you saw at the Garden.. I have grown Now and came to protect and to defend YOU.. NOW I must have to go back and wait another year.. and as I would turn to walk away.. a Guard runs and stops Me with the friend.. and I would show the Guard the Official Stamp Letter.. the Seal from the COMMANDER who was the CHIEF in the military Arts.. and the Guard just could not believe the seal.. and He ran with the Official Seals.. and YOU were standing by the table.. and the Guard shows YOU.. the Letter and the Official Letter seal.. and YOU do know this Commander.. He was at the TOP of his TIME.. who was protecting YOUR FATHER the KING.. PEH HA.. the Guard comes to get me and the friend.. and We both would walk behind the Guard.. and I lifted UP my Head and I see YOU there.. I see you standing and waiting by the table.. and I started to cry.. showing YOU the JOY and the sorrows and It has been such a Long time.. but YOU are so Beautiful.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. you are so Beautiful.. I am standing in the training camp.. and I see you coming over from the Fence.. the Big Crown on the Top of your Head.. and the White Dress.. as I see you walk alone.. YOU take my breathe away.. and I can feel my Heart beating so fast.. and as YOU come to meet me in the Center of the training camp.. the New Recruits.. over 200 men are standing by.. as YOU stop.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I am standing looking at YOU as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I do not need this any more.. but Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have to always remember that when you were Never around.. this was the Only THING that Held my Heart because whenever I missed YOU.. this was the Only thing that helped me through the way.. When I was left alone for a Long time.. this was the Only thing.. it may Not be anything special to YOU.. It may not be any of the importance to YOU.. YOU may just look at it as a paper.. that someone drew long ago.. and it may only seems like the past piece of Art.. but to Me.. it has many memories of loving YOU.. many Memories of Looking UP at the Moon.. standing Alone in the Nights.. there was SUN.. but also there was the MOON.. there was a time when Winter came by and it be very cold outside.. when times I saw the falling of the rain.. when I lost my Father.. and I felt my Heart broke all the way.. when I could Not see YOU and even the BOY who drew this Picture.. How he had to sneak into the Palace gates and How from the Far he drew YOU.. who got caught and arrested.. He was beaten and Put to death.. telling me that this is for me and knowing that HE wishes that My Dreams came true and that ALL this did Not mean Nothing to Me as he died by the Sword.. Even the Older MAN.. who was the teacher in my Life saw this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU who knew WHO you are.. but told me to GO.. and to Protect YOU and to defend the Nation which it belongs to YOU and this Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU was the main reason WHY I could go On.. when I was at the Garden.. and I saw YOU there for the first TIME.. I wanted that Boy to draw.. of course I knew it be just too late to call HIM.. when I saw YOU by the gates of the Garden and I walked Out and saw YOU.. I wanted to ask YOU.. Can you Please draw another or Give me another Picture from the Art Sketch.. but.. when YOU left.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. the Day you left the Garden is when I knew the Only thing I had was this.. and my arms would lift as my hands are Holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. it was only this I had because I knew.. I was Not sure if I could ever see YOU again.. when I would see YOU again was my thoughts.. going UP the Hill and standing by the tree below was the Garden and Across I would see the palace.. and Knowing that is the Place where YOU at.. I wanted to Go.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. but what if I am NOT ALLOWED to get in and be put into the Prison instead.. But.. I made UP my mind.. I can die tomorrow and I will say I love YOU.. I can die the few days Later.. as Long there is still a Breathe IN me.. I know I can still Believe in Loving YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I do remember leaving the Garden after I made UP my Mind.. in the Snow walking and knowing How cold it was.. and knowing I could die A lot sooner.. I felt the Last Push of my body as I kept on walking through the SNOW.. I was thinking of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am not sure How much More I have in Me.. But I will still try to go to YOU and I kept on walking in the Snow and I felt my body.. it could NOT go no more and I fell down in the Snow.. I kept on thinking of YOU until the last breathe saying I am so sorry I might Not make It.. As I was on the Guard.. watching the Post at Night.. and How I became the Palace guard guarding the back gates.. I do remember pulling the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. and LOOKING.. I been needing to LOOK.. thinking of YOU.. saying to this Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. YOU may not hear my voice be telling YOU but I say it as I look at YOU.. that I love YOU.. do you know How much I love YOU and I would hold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture close to my Heart.. to my Chest.. I wish that I be holding YOU instead but.. it be this paper instead.. someone telling me that Behind me is the Chamber of Your ROOM.. and I remember I turn back to LOOK.. I saw YOU.. looking Out from the patio of the Chamber of Your ROOM.. the MOON was Out.. I would LOOK UP at.. I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU see me.. I am here and it has been such a Long time coming.. and Now.. I know that I do Not need this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch paper any more.. I want to see YOU take this from Me.. Now I am here close to YOU.. I told the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. Once I meet YOU.. I can Now send it away and give it to YOU because it belongs to YOU.. it has come to the right Person WHO I love the Most.. so Please take this from Me because I am giving YOU my Heart.. My Heart is in it because it is YOU who I never forgotten.. and I see YOU LOOKING at me.. as I am on two Knees.. My Head is Looking on the floor.. my arms raise with the Paper.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. Please take this From me because I don't need it any more.. why do I need it when I see YOU here.. there is NO POINT for me to have because it is YOU.. I see your hands take the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and my tears.. it starts to flow Out of both eyes of me.. I can finally let that Piece of Paper GO and allow the Boy to finally rest in Piece.. the Seven Friends of Mine would walk together and they would all stand Behind.. the two Knees and Heads look on the floor.. arms straight Out.. and I see YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. Now One of the Guards comes and has a Torch in the Hand and Gives to YOU.. and I see YOU Burn it with the Fire and It becomes the Ashes before my eyes.. I just can't believe It.. and as I see YOU looking down.. I see you with a SMILE.. and I smile back because it means everything to Me.. YOU are truly everything to Me.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH means everything to me.. and I hear something.. I hear foot steps walking.. and I see you Crown Princess turn Around and Comes.. the 2nd Rank General is coming.. and there is Seven Other Lower Generals walking behind Him and the Eight stops next to YOU.. the 2nd RANK General with the seven generals all goes to the two Knees.. Heads all lowers looking to the floor.. Arms come out straight forward.. and I see YOU LOOKING at HIM.. pulling Out your Sword.. the 2nd Rank General speaks to YOU and it is about Me.. and How he knows me.. He has beaten me before.. and Now.. wants to fight me.. and YOU would turn to LOOK at me.. and Point the sword at Me.. I lift UP my Head and I look over.. and I DO remember.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. I will accept the Challenge.. and I see YOU walk back and as I am looking

MAH MAH.. Table looks and YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just can't believe that it is YOU.. and as YOU stand by the table.. YOU look at the two Letters.. one is the Official Seal with a Stamp of the Name of the OLDER MAN.. the Commander of the King.. PEH HA.. and the Other is the written Letter from Me giving to YOU through the years what I had to deal to get to YOU.. and I see you reading the Letter.. the New Friend was with me and He also gives the Official Seal with the stamp of his Father.. the Commander and I am holding the Sword of my Grand father and the Friend is holding His Father's sword and YOU look at the two swords and YOU look at the Guard to let us inside.. and I just cannot believe it.. it has been this Long.. and Now I am here.. I am at the Camp.. this training camp Only the YOUNG NEW RECRUITS can pass the exam of the military Arts.. but by the seal.. the official Seal and stamp.. and I would fall.. both on my two knees.. with the New Friend.. both on the two Knees.. heads are looking on the ground.. and arms straight forward.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we are here.. have made it to the Camp.. I thought I had to wait another Year.. but even Next year would be NO Promise.. since the Line is so Long.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say thank YOU.. and I see YOU stand.. in your hands are the Official Seals and stamps.. as YOU would pull out the sword and Point to me.. I would lift UP my Head and I turn to LOOK at YOU and I would say.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why did YOU not come to the Garden.. DO you know that I been waiting for YOU at that Garden.. I know that YOU are Busy.. because YOU are going to be the RULER.. the Next to RULE in the Line for this Nation.. but YOU could of visited.. YOU could of come to the Garden because I was missing YOU.. I was waiting for YOU.. Do you know How it feels to be waiting and waiting but YOU never came.. YOU have done so Much for the Garden I was staying.. there were people who came from the Nobles.. I saw the ROYAL Doctors and even the Chief Royal Doctors and who was able to save so Many lives.. the condition of the Poor people who were dying.. But it is because YOU came.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU came to look at the Garden instead and saw the Poverty of the People's lives and has chosen to do what is right for the People.. I saw the Builders from the Royal Palace that YOU send.. even People who were about to make something from the Woods and has turned the Garden into a Whole New Place.. I saw a WHOLE NEW WORLD because it was YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. who rescued the Broken and Lost.. the Poor people and has rebuild everything into something New.. I saw re building of the Garden.. I wanted to see YOU.. Crown Princess.. I wanted to see YOU.. I would wonder.. where is the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. without YOU it would never been re build at that Garden.. Lives changed because YOU came.. sick people became healthy and they started to eat well.. Planters and farmers came together.. giving a New Life of meaning to Live.. I sat.. and I was looking for YOU.. But YOU never came.. because YOU did Not come back to the Garden.. and I wanted to say something., say thank YOU.. but YOU never came that is NOW I have come.. NOW I have come to protect YOU and to defend YOU.. LOOK at the Official Seal.. and LOOK at the Stamp on the Paper I gave YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the Older MAN.. the Teacher who taught me for Many Years.. He told me that He fought for this Nation.. with My Grand father.. together as Brothers At War.. they both joined hands together and has protected your Father.. the KING PEH HA.. He is the One who taught me through these years of the Art of Swordsmanship and to shoot arrows and TOLD me stories of the Battles He had to face.. many died by the Sword of His with my Grand father's sword too.. protecting this NATION and to protect.. the Teacher knows that I loved YOU.. I showed HIM the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I showed him that Picture.. drawing picture and that I wanted to be the ONE to protect YOU and to defend the Nation.. and the Older man.. the Teacher started to show Me how to WIN the Battles of the War because He has experienced and has passed DOWN the Knowledge and the experiences to me with his Son.. Now I came here for this very reason.. TO protect YOU and to defend the Nation and to tell YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS how much I love YOU..I am looking at the rain falling down the Sky.. looking across.. I see the Door where I sleep.. it is opened.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU is inside that ROOM.. I needs to go and get it.. My Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. Your Picture.. the Art Sketch Paper.. when I was Young.. the paper that YOU gave to Me.. I had to get the permission from the Artist Boy who drew that Picture of YOU.. I remember he told Me.. if He gets Caught drawing the Picture.. If a Guard catches or Any Officials who works for Your Father the King.. PEH HA.. he can be Put to death.. but He went and drew that Picture for me.. I saw Him get caught.. He was dragged into the Prison.. I could Not believe what has happened to that BOY.. who died for drawing the Picture of YOU.. I remember the Night I went to visit Him. My Father was able to get Me into the Palace.. being the Head servant who was serving YOU.. I went with my Father.. I saw Him siting alone.. and it just broke my Heart.. He told me.. it is because it is YOU.. the Crown Princess.. it is because YOU are MAH MAH.. the HAWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. any ways He was poor.. living as a Homeless street.. as I hold his hands to thank HIM.. he looked at me and told me.. I have A Dream.. as Long as I have that Dream to conqueror.. to be by YOUR SIDE.. MY CROWN PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. who I loved and to serve.. and to Protect.. and told me.. GO ALL IN.. even if it gets me Here like this Young Boy.. it be worth Dying for as long as I can try my Best to get there.. and I cried Loud as He told Me.. Chase my Dreams and Let it come true.. Believe In It.. and something BIG.. GRAND can happen in the end.. I saw the Guards with the Keys.. Unlocks.. AND It was His time to GO.. I screamed Let HIM LIVE.. He did Not do any wrong.. what is Wrong to and the Guard struck me.. I fell and saw that Boy being carried away.. I get UP.. and I ran.. ran after the Guards WHO was taking HIM away.. my Father ran after ME.. grabbed me and told Me.. I will see him again.. and I stood there crying.. as the Boy disappeared into the Night.. and It was raining.. I saw the RAIN falling and I would Cry Out in Loud Voice wailing.. Crown Princess.. WHY is Life Not so fair for the POOR people.. small people like Us.. it is no Fair and I am wiping my tears with my Arms.. and as I am sitting down.. I am crying Looking at the open Door to the Small room.. that Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU is a gift.. the Price has been paid.. some one had to die just to draw that Picture of YOU for Me and It died.. and the Older Man.. the Master.. he has the stick.. holding it UP.. and there is the stick on the ground next to me.. I want that Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. the Cost of Losing a One's Life.. and it is YOU.. My Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH and I grab the stick with my Hand and PULL myself UP.. and my eyes looking at the Older MAN.. and he yells Out Loud and swings the Stick at me and I would go back.. the waters makes me slide back and I would yell in rage and I jump UP with the stick In my hand and I swing the stick and it hits the Old Man's stick. and I jump Up again and swing right left left right and I land on the ground and did a back Kick and Hit the Master on the middle.. and I jump Up again swinging the stick in my hand with full of Rage.. I want that Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and swinging the stick in my hand left right right left and It knocks the Stick Off his Hand.. and I do a round house kick to knock him on the Ground.. the Older Man.. He is laying on the ground.. as the rain Keeps on falling down.. and I stand holding the stick in my hand.. I am crying.. Just Missing YOU.. wanting to be with YOU.. but Look at me.. I am here stuck Out here.. ALL I want to do is just to see you for ONCE.. But the situation is Not helping me to go anywhere at this Point.. WHAT DO I do Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. the Older man.. the Master gets UP slowly.. and he stands looking at me.. and I see he leaving out of sight.. as I would LOOK at the Open Door to the ROOM.. the Small room where I rest.. and I go inside.. and I am looking.. the Art Sketch Paper.. and drawing Picture of YOU.. this Means everything to me.. I remember putting this Art Sketch Paper.. drawing Picture of YOU.. Putting in back of Me.. walking In the Snow.. all alone.. Not knowing where I was going to go but I even had to leave the Garden.. I told myself.. that I am going to go where YOU are.. Crown Princes.. as I would grab hold onto the Paper.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I told YOU through Looking at this Picture.. Someday I will get Close.. even though I may be far right Now.. I know that One day I will see YOU.. I will be close so that YOU know how much I love YOU.. and the Sword.. by the time I see YOU.. I am going to be holding a Sword in my hand.. and the Sword I hold.. it is going to Protect YOU.. my Sword that I have with me will always protect and also defend for YOU.. I will be a man of my words

MAH MAH.. will see YOU SOON.. it may seems like a long time Now.. the Older MAN.. the Master tells me.. it be a lot sooner because I am thinking of YOU.. that I have a Dream to Love YOU.. but to Protect.. and to defend YOU for a cause for this Nation you are building.. that I know I needs to be there to see YOU as My True QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU as you take your place of Your Father's Spot.. to RULE this NATION as the CONQUEROR.. I want to be there to see with my own eyes before I die.. I can't not delay.. because I want to see YOU soon.. and I would be thinking of YOU.. thinking of protecting YOU and also defending Your Nation I would hit and hit.. the Wooden Sword Stick would break.. because I would hit it very Hard.. the Older man.. the Master would carve another WOODEN SWORD STICK for me.. He is just sitting there being busy Carving all day Long.. I do remember like My Father.. who was watching me.. I would be holding the Bow.. strings I would Pull back.. many times I would pull the strings back and forth.. I would use the Arrow.. the back of the end of the arrows.. I would aim and I would release the strings of the Bow.. it would break.. He would be very busy pulling the Strings into the Bow.. watching me Shoot the Arrows.. many flies to different sides.. I kept On practice shooting.. even my hands be hurting.. Just like Holding this WOODEN STICK SWORD.. I hit many times on the Wooden DUMMY.. But I never gave UP on the Dreams of Loving YOU.. I just can't call it the Quits.. I have come so Far and I am getting closer to YOU.. as the OLDER MAN.. the Master looks at me.. He tells me.. it is time for me to GO to see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would stand there as he gives me the Letter.. stamping with the seal for His NAME that I am His student.. I would stand IN the ROOM.. as I am looking at the Letter with the STAMP SEALED.. I would sit.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I sat alone.. crying.. It means that I get to finally see YOU.. I have made the promise.. DO you remember.. and I am LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. WHEN we were Young.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU came to the Garden.. and I was at the Top of the Hill.. By the tree.. visiting My Mother's grave.. I was with my Father and he wanted too tell me a story.. and I heard the Messenger as he was going Up on the Hill.. and it stopped my Father and we turned to look back.. the Messenger says the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH is coming UP.. and Me and My Father.. Both on the Knees Looking on the ground.. YOU came to us.. and it broke my Heart when YOU told me.. it is going to be hard for you to come to this Garden.. and before YOU are going to come the One last Time.. a Prince is going to show UP for the Last time.. and I knew what that meant.. I remember that Day Came.. YOU showed UP with the Prince who wanted to Marry YOU.. My Heart was breaking into Pieces when He came with YOU.. but I made a Promise to YOU.. and that promise is that I will still love YOU.. and that I will go to serve.. and to protect and defend YOU.. even if it means that I can't Love YOU.. but I asked YOU.. can I still Love YOU.. WOULD YOU let me still Love YOU.. but I do remember YOU looked the other way.. WHEN I saw you with the Prince at the Hill top by the Tree.. I did Not want any one there which it was my Mother's Grave.. I just could Not believe it had to happen.. when I think of it Now.. I have never given UP on that Promise.. as I was in the Small ROOM.. holding the Letter with the Stamp sealed of the Older Man.. the Master.. and On the Other Hand is the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I don't have anything.. I have Nothing really.. But I do have this Heart.. a Heart who never seems to stop but Keeps On loving YOU and I am going to go to YOU.. I will be close to YOU and show YOU.. I am a MAN with a real Words who will do what I will say because I love YOU.. and as I hold the Letter.. there is a servant who belongs to the Older man.. the Master and he became my friend.. and that He too wanted to go to the palace life.. just to protect and the defend for YOU.. as I am looking at the SUN rising UP.. watching the New Recruits of Young Men.. I see YOU sitting on the Horse.. on the White Dress.. but this Time.. YOU have came Off from Sitting and I see YOU walking.. with the Big Crown on top of your Head.. and I turn to LOOK.. with the Seven men.. the friends of Mine.. we turn to face YOU.. and I would say.. SALUTE.. and all of the Men.. even the New Recruits.. More who even joined into the training camp.. ALL goes on the two Knees.. Arms moves forward.. and Lowers the Heads together and I see YOU stop.. MY Heart starts to beat Faster.. as my Heart keeps On running.. ALL these men.. New and Older.. the Military and Generals.. Commanders and Chief Generals.. ALL down on two Knees.. I would pull the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. the Young Boy who drew this Picture of YOU.. as I am looking at it.. My eyes.. watery and fills with Tears and I can feel my tears running Down as I am looking at this Picture.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. as YOU pull out the Sword and YOU point at Me.. and I lift UP my Head looking UP at YOU.. My Heart breaks because I do remember this One Young Fellow.. He told me that as Long as I keep dreaming.. and Dreaming of Just Loving YOU.. and to follow my Dreams and my Heart towards YOU.. that One day.. something Big.. something Grand will Happen.. I did Not know what that Meant.. But Now I know what it is Like because I am here today still Loving YOU.. I had no idea why was that young boy saying this to me.. that is before he died.. I saw the Boy's body on the back of a wagon being carried.. on the streets.. a HAY was covered over.. I ran to look at the wagon being pulled by the Horse.. when I stopped.. uncover the STRAY HAY covering.. it was the Same young Boy who gave me this Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. and I would with both hands show YOU.. HWANGTAEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you walking closer and YOU stopped.. and YOU looked at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. it is this Picture I kept all of this Time and Just could Not let It go.. But Know I believe I can because my Dreams of Loving YOU and coming this Close.. It has been kept alive.. I want YOU to do the Honor to Burn this For Me.. because Now.. I realize I don't need this One Picture because I see YOU Now.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am close to YOU NOW.. I love YOU MORE NOW.. so I don't need to go back because I am Now living in the Present.. going forward with YOU to future HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. ALL I want to say to YOU.. I still Love YOU.. I never have given UP that Hope and dreams of Loving YOU.. I hope that NOW you can see my true Heart.. the real Heart of Mine who never stopped Loving you this Far.. all I wanted to say to YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. I love YOU..I walk out the room.. Pulling out the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I just can't stop.. I been thinking of YOU a lot lately.. and I needs to go see YOU.. but How.. and as I am standing out.. I would turn to the Left.. I see the Horse.. and it belongs to the Older Man who teaches me.. maybe this time.. and I would look at the Art sketch paper.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. YOU know that YOU may Not see me.. but I will be at the Palace.. I will only be like a Shadow.. like the wind.. YOU can't see Me.. but YOU know that I am there.. knowing because I love YOU.. and I would Fold the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU in my Back.. and I would walk.. I stop by the Horse.. and I would get back on this Black Horse.. I would hit the Horse likely and the Horse starts to RUN.. as I am riding on the Back of the Horse.. feeling the Wind in my face as the Horse keeps On running down the Road.. all I can think of is YOU.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. even though I may not be close.. even though you may Not see Me.. I know that as long as I can see YOU.. just seeing YOU from a Far is all I can ask for.. even though I may Not be able to say or tell YOU what My Heart truly feels or expresses to YOU.. as Long as my eyes sees that YOU are doing good.. that is ALL I am asking for.. the Horse keeps On running down the road.. all through the Day.. I see this Horse.. this Black Horse keeps on going.. it feels Like me.. Just cannot stop but keeps On going.. as I would watch the SUN Setting down.. when I look on the side.. I see the waters.. and the Horse would run slowly as it stops.. I give this Horse.. the Black Horse some rest.. I get Off the Horse.. Now.. as I would walk close to the waters.. there are group of guys by the waters.. and I would turn to look at One of the guys.. and I would stand still.. as I would pull the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. and it is killing me inside that I can't be close to YOU.. Now.. one of the guys.. he comes closer and takes a LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and Looks at me.. and I tell Him.. Yes.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU are asking me.. I am a Low Born servant.. and I know I can't even Look at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. who am I to love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am Not suppose to ever put my eyes on YOU.. and the penalty for getting caught is Death.. even though I know that If I break this Law.. But.. if YOU take a LOOK at me.. I am already Dead.. so I have No

I am trying to remember.. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am Looking in the second Room.. sitting on the top of the desk is the Empty Vase.. as I am trying to Hear your voice.. Looking at your Number.. I am holding the Phone.. the Cell Phone.. but.. there is a sticker Picture inside the Cell Phone I have.. as I am looking at the sticker Picture.. there is YOUR beautiful face.. and I know that In this Cabin Log home.. why is it that I am in this House.. I am asking myself.. if I just don't remember any thing at ALL.. I have Lost the memories of Us.. and it is just killing me inside.. How can something like this be happening to Me.. and I feel so bad that I don't remember.. as I am looking at this sticker picture of YOU inside the Phone of the Cover.. I want to ask YOU about this.. so I am looking at your Number and I would push to Hear it ring through.. putting the Phone on my ear.. I am waiting for YOU to pick it UP on the Other side.. WILL you please hear me Outs.. and I wait.. as it keeps ON ringing and I hear Your Voice on the other Side.. I hear the word HELLO.. and I would say to YOU.. I see a Sticker on the cover of the Phone.. I want to remember.. but I feel like I am still stuck here.. I went to the doctor.. because I wanted to have some answers.. and the doctor keeps on telling me that I needs to wait for the memories to come Back.. but I feel like it is taking me just too long.. and I want to tell YOU.. what am I suppose to DO.. because I think it is Hurting me More as I keep on thinking about this situation.. will you Please help me so that I could remember.. as I am listening to your Voice and what YOU would share.. YOU are telling me about a Fair Park.. going to the state fair Park.. it was me who wanted to GO and it was I who asked you to Come to the State Fair Park.. and I am standing here.. trying to remember about the State Fair park.. also I won on a contest and got the Big Teddy Bear and we took a picture of it.. and as I am listening on the Phone.. YOU are telling me that the Picture is in the second ROOM.. and behind the Desk the Picture is there.. so I would walk over to the Desk and I would bend Low and go under the desk.. laying on the Floor and my hand goes to LOOK behind the desk.. I feel something and it is the Picture.. as I pull the Picture Down and I would slowly move out and I would stand UP.. as I would be holding One hand of the Picture.. and the Other hand is the Phone on the ear.. and I would tell YOU on the Phone.. I see the Picture.. I see YOU holding.. arms wrap around the Big TEDDY BEAR.. with a smile.. and above the Picture is another Sticker Picture and it is take of me.. and I am wondering.. did I also take a Sticker Picture too.. because there is One Above stick on this Picture of YOU arms holding around the BIG TEDDY BEAR.. and I would hear your Voice.. and I would say.. I wish I can remember.. but I am Not sure of this Place.. this is the reason why I should not of called YOU because Now I feel so bad.. I see that I have taken a Sticker Picture and YOU have too because I have a sticker Picture of YOU on the Phone Cover.. and Yes.. I went to the Doctor.. asking him why I just can't remember anything.. and it is making me feel so SICK because I have NO Idea.. I have No clue about anything.. I would ask YOU.. why have you chosen this Place.. WHY did I come to this CABIN LOG HOME.. is it because YOU want me to remember everything.. and YOU do know what the doctor said right.. did YOU know that I be memory Loss and would Not remember anything.. I even heard the Doctor said.. maybe I will never remember anything any More.. when the Doctor told me this today.. walking back.. leaving the Hospital.. I broke down in tears.. I just could not take it any more because think about HOW CAN I LIVE like this.. never to remember myself or even YOU.. did YOU even know about this.. and I would wait for you to say something.. your response and I hear your Voice on the Other Line.. and I would hear you say Yes.. that the Doctor TOLD YOU that in serious condition.. the Memories may Never come around and just to prepare for me to be LIKE a stranger.. as I be hearing this from YOU on the Other Line.. I want to Break my Heart into Pieces.. WHY.. why does this has to happen to Me.. if you knew what the doctor said to YOU.. why didn't you tell me.. if you knew before Hand.. you could at least tell me so that I would Not have to hear from the Doctor.. if I broken down in tears after leaving the Hospital.. and hearing the Word Never.. I just couldn't take it any More.. I know that YOU probably don't feel the same way too.. that is why I am calling YOU on the Phone.. that is why I called you so that at least YOUR voice can help me to remember something.. If I remain silent.. I know for sure I will Not remember.. that is why I am asking YOU TO help me to remember YOU.. I needs to know.. when I saw the Phone on the table.. and I opened and saw the Cover of the Phone.. something catch my eye was the sticker Picture.. and I would draw closer to take a LOOK.. as I would get closer.. I see YOU.. I want to say I love YOU.. did I ever told YOU that.. did YOU hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from me.. did I ever tell YOU that.. and as I would wait on the Line.. I would hear your Voice and YOU be telling me that I told you those two words A lot to YOU.. and I would tell you on the Phone.. then I believe I can start with These two Words.. can I tell YOU that I miss YOU.. missing YOU drives me crazy and YOU be telling me that YOU are going to come to visit me.. if YOU know where I live.. why don't you ever come visit me.. since YOU know me well.. of course even though I have this Memory Loss.. I still can take a look at YOU in person.. the More I see YOU in person.. the More I can see and I feel and hear YOU.. that way can help me more right.. Only if YOU want to show UP.. only if YOU want to come so that I can see YOU.. so Please stop by and show me who you are.. and as I turn around and I would walk away from the second room.. I walk to the living ROOM and there is the window.. I would look through the Window.. and I see someone standing Out side.. and I would walk a little closer to the Window and I see a Figure.. on the Phone.. My heart starts to beat Fast.. as I am looking.. is it YOU.. but I would not ask YOU that because I would only ask myself.. I am by the Window with my Phone.. and I see someone out side also with the Phone.. I am wondering.. if YOU have come to stop By and I would watch as the Figure turns away and starts to walk away.. and I am thinking it must be YOU who came to visit.. if you came this close.. why don't you knock on the Door.. if it was YOU would was standing Out side by the DOOR.. YOU know that I would of Opened the DOOR for YOU.. and Let YOU in.. I would ask you.. Please help me to remember.. YOU know that I feel like I am dying inside because I feel like a stranger to myself of NOT even knowing who I am.. DID YOU see me get closer to the window.. is that WHY YOU have turned away and has walked Off.. as I am hearing a Long Pause on the Phone.. I wanted to ask YOU if it was YOU who came closer.. came to this LOG CABIN HOME.. I wanted to ask if It was YOU because I saw a Figure.. someone On the Phone by the Door.. close to the window.. it was Only a Knock away from the DOOR.. you could of knocked.. and YOU could of showed me your Face and I could of saw YOU first time in person.. But.. why did YOU leave.. WHY did you have to walk away.. YOU know that I would let YOU come In.. my arms are opened to receive YOU and YOU are always welcome to come inside.. is it because of Me.. is it that the main reason why YOU have chosen to leave.. as I would say something on the Phone.. I would say.. are you still there.. and I do hear Your Voice and YOU are telling me that YOU needs to Go.. so I would tell YOU on the Phone.. Next time.. all YOU needs to do is Knock on the Door.. YOU know that I will answer and I will let YOU in.. and I would hear YOU say on the Phone.. and I would say.. I went into the second ROOM.. after YOU be telling me about the Picture of YOU holding.. arms around the BIG TEDDY BEAR.. it was a struggle for me to get down on the Floor to crawl.. hand grabs and pulls behind the Desk and I find the Picture of YOU.. I saw a Sticker picture on the corner of it.. that is why I asked because some one put the little sticker picture of ME on the top corner and I would hear your Voice say.. it was YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. who is the One who put this Picture Behind the Desk in the second Room.. and I would hear YOU say on the Other Line of the Phone.. that ONE NIGHT.. YOU came over.. and after the State Fair Park.. YOU wanted to Hide this Picture.. YOU would say that I just could NOT let this Picture GO.. and that I would always look at It.. of course it drove YOU mad and angry because it seems Like I would love this Picture More than YOU.. but that is NOT true.. why would I love the Picture More.. when YOU are BETTER to love.. better to Hold and to touch and to KNOW because when I hold you close.. I can feel my Heart be beating.. the SOUND of my Heart Beat is the reason WHY I love YOU and can say.. can tell YOU HOW much I love YOU.. but.. of course I do Love and enjoy looking at your Picture too.. it is because It is YOU.. why.. do you want me to LOOK at another person's picture instead.. of course NOT.. so YOU should be at least happy that I love YOU and that is why I love Your Picture TOO.. so.. because of this.. YOU wanted to hide the Picture and has Placed it in the second ROOM behind the desk.. and YOU be saying.. I started to Miss Your Picture for a while.. after YOU hid that behind the Desk and that is why YOU put a sticker Picture of YOU on the Front cover

Door if I was the One who loved YOU more.. if I can still love YOU.. I will.. if I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I will tell YOU.. but YOU needs to help me first.. if you can only come back and return to the Front.. by the door.. by the window.. I know I be here.. ready to receive YOU IN.. you were so Close to the Door.. very Close.. if YOU can change your mind to return back.. I want to take you to the second ROOM.. I want to ask YOU about the Empty Vase.. it is so Beautiful.. but I want to know why is this Empty Vase sitting in the ROOM on the top of the desk.. WILL you please tell you what this is ALL about.. I want to Know.. because I been staring at it for a while.. but WHY DO I keep on looking at it.. does it has some means to it.. must be something because I would stand there and JUST look.. just stare at it like something is wrong with Me.. so Please come back.. and I will let YOU in.. as I am standing still.. I hear your Voice and tells me that YOU needs to Go.. and I would say.. WHY.. does that Means YOU are not going to come back around.. WHY are you leaving me like this Now.. if YOU came so Close.. why are you telling me you needs to go Now.. I want some answers that YOU KNOW.. because I believe YOU know what ALL these things are about.. so Please help me.. so that I can still keep on loving YOU where it needs to start again.. I just bought a New Home.. Leaving the City life into the Country side.. I am walking over the Mountains.. into the Hills and to the valley.. a Small Log House in the woods.. as I am walking through the Snow.. I stop to see.. the Flakes are falling from the Sky.. I am very close to the Log Cabin House.. Finally.. I have been waiting to get Out of the city life.. as I stop.. I am able to see the Snow flakes falling from the Sky.. as I unlock the Door.. and I enter the Small Log Cabin Home.. as I look into the Small Two bed room Home.. I am wondering.. why did I even buy a House with two rooms.. I have no one coming over.. but I know that If I prepare the place.. Maybe.. some one will show Up.. I have never met the person who use to Live in this Small Log Cabin house.. as I walk into One of the rooms.. There is a Desk.. I wonder why someone has left this Desk Behind.. something stops me before I turn to walk away.. I see something on the TOP of the Desk.. what is It.. I am wondering.. what is It.. SO I would walk closer to the Desk.. there is a Written Note.. and Next to the Note is a Picture.. of course I can only see the back of the Picture.. I am wondering.. maybe it must be the Picture of the Person who use to live in this Small Log Cabin House.. But why would some one leave a precious Gift behind.. if I lived in this House.. I know for sure I will Not leave anything special.. or Precious to me behind.. But.. should I turn the Picture over to see who this Person is.. I am standing there.. thinking of.. but I know that this is Not my picture.. WHY would I turn it over to look if it is Not for Me.. I am sure.. maybe the Person was in a rush.. and has forgotten to take this Picture.. but.. WHY would YOU write a Note for me.. I know that the written Note.. it is telling me.. giving me an instruction.. but why would you tell me something.. I can just live whatever I want.. I see the Note Next to the Picture.. Both are facing where I cannot see.. as I would stop.. maybe I should take a Look.. must be very important if YOU have written for the New Home Owner.. which I have purchased this Small Log Cabin Home from YOU.. I have never met YOU.. but Of course I do remember before the Contract.. YOU called me on the Phone.. and Got a chance to listen to Your Beautiful Voice.. Now.. I am very curious.. YOUR voice.. truly felt like I was listening to an Angel.. I know that If you sang a SONG.. I bet it would melt my Heart like the Snow Flakes.. I would stand Out side.. before I came to the DOOR.. to Unlock.. I would LOOK Up to the sky.. My hand opens.. I would watch the Falling snow flakes.. when It touched my hand.. it just melted and maybe Your Voice.. if YOU sang to Me.. My Heart can melt the way the Snow Flakes can melt into my hands.. I was smiling because I been living in apartment for a Long time.. just paying rent to rent monthly.. But.. Now.. able to purchase a new Home.. Out here in the Country side.. walking and climbing on the mountains.. just enjoying the fresh cold air as I would be walking through the Snow.. never felt so Alive in my life.. But Now.. I am here.. inside this Small Log Cabin Home.. and I just walked into a ROOM.. YOU did not take the desk.. there is a Picture laying on the TOP of the desk face down.. with a written Note facing down.. I am just wondering.. I remember when I picked UP the Phone.. and hearing your voice on the Other side.. on the Other line.. Your Voice.. it truly touched my Heart.. I begin to wonder more about YOU because of this Sensational touch.. Your Voice moved my Heart.. I felt it kick inside of Me.. and never felt that way before.. so I would start wondering.. I wonder How YOU would look.. as YOU were so happy to sell the House and even telling me Congratulation on the purchase of the New Home.. as I would share with YOU how I lived in rents all my Life.. but able to get a house means everything to me.. giving me a great deal in the purchase.. of course I wanted to ask YOU.. if YOU can sing.. because I wanted to know if YOU can sing.. can YOU sing a song so that I can listen to Your voice with my Heart opened.. but of course I never asked.. YOU probably think I am a crazy person.. as I am standing by the desk.. My hand grabs the Picture.. I wanted to turn it over.. I wanted to see the person who I just spoke with ON the Phone.. YOUR voice.. I just want to hear again.. can I listen to Your Voice.. would you let me call you on the Phone so that I can listen.. My Heart wants to listen to Your Voice again.. before I want to ask YOU.. I want to know how you look.. why are you so Nice.. why are you so kind to me.. I want to know who YOU are.. WHY would you leave this Picture behind if YOU have never met me.. if YOU have never seen me in person.. why leave me Your Precious gift.. Your Special gift.. I am nothing but a stranger to YOU.. what if I am a weird person.. some crazy person.. would YOU not be afraid of Me.. As I grab the Picture and turn to LOOK at it.. I see YOU sitting.. and My Heart jumps.. My Heart skips missing that Beat.. Just like Your Voice.. soft and beautiful.. I see your picture.. I see YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful too.. YOU are so Lovely.. feels like YOU can take my breathe way.. then what happens to my Breathe if you take it from Me.. what are you doing to me Now.. WHY leave this Picture behind and when I see this Picture.. I can feel my Breathe.. it wants to be released from Me.. I can't breathe.. my eyes wants to say I can't breathe because YOU are so Beautiful.. as I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. YOU are sitting down.. and I am wondering what is it that YOU are holding.. Why are you holding a Vase.. is it a vase for flowers.. I am not sure why YOU are leaving this Picture with Me.. what does it means.. why are you showing me this Picture for.. I have no clue.. I have no idea.. but why are you letting me see this picture.. and making my Heart to say I want to cry.. I have never met you before.. But How is this possible for Me.. why do I feel like I want to love YOU.. please tell me how can this be true because I have never met you before.. as I am looking at your arms holding this vase.. why is it empty.. are YOU not suppose to put something into that Vase.. it is an empty Vase Your hands are holding.. Please.. OH Please tell me what is the meaning of this because I want to know.. I have no clue.. I have no idea why you are showing me this.. I don't see any empty Vase.. but only this Picture.. with a Note.. so I would go over.. my hand grabs the Note and flips to look.. and YOU have written to me about the Picture.. and telling me about the Vase.. an Empty Vase.. and YOU have left it on the Other Room.. and I am not sure why YOU would tell me this.. what am I suppose to do with the Empty Vase.. I don't have any flowers.. and all it tells me to take good care of the Empty Vase.. and Now.. YOU are letting me to keep it.. so I am standing in this room wondering.. YOU are giving me this Empty Vase.. but I have no flowers to put in it.. so what am I suppose to do with this.. SO I would turn around walking out of this room.. the Other room is next on the right.. as I enter the second room.. There is another Desk.. and ON top of the Desk is the Vase.. an empty Vase sitting on the top of the Desk.. am I suppose to tell you something about this vase.. am I suppose to share with YOU what I want to do because it is Not making any sense with me a this Point.. I feel like I am Not the Owner of this House anymore.. since YOU are leaving things behind for me to take care of It.. I am not a male servant.. and NO.. I am not here to clean this House either.. I just purchased this House from YOU.. but WHY do I feel like there is a person who Owns it and maybe I am just renting this Place.. that is how I am feeling because.. I have to watch over things that does Not belongs to me.. I have brought my own bags and luggage so that NOW I can live in this house.. and I stand on the second room.. Looking at the Vase.. has water inside this Vase so it is Not completely empty.. but still looks empty to Me.. so I walk over to the second Desk.. I see a Picture with the Face Down.. so is it a Prank.. is this a joke because I am not feeling it at this Point.. my hand grabs and I turn to look at the front.. I see a Picture of a Heart.. as I am looking at the picture closer.. YOU have taken a picture of a Heart shape.. it is a Pillow I can see.. but why are you showing me this Picture.. I know that I love Heart.. but what does it means.. why are you doing this to Me

Young.. but it seems like YOU know me.. why would you tell me this.. Maybe YOU are writing to another person.. but then knowing that it is I who just purchased this House.. It has to be for Me.. who else lives in this House.. I am the only one who bought this House from YOU.. so I know that we met before.. and telling me when were young.. HOW long was this.. How old was I when I met YOU.. Please tell me.. and I am thinking about calling YOU on the Phone.. But.. I am Not just going to call YOU and say I don't remember YOU.. so How am I suppose to answer this question because I don't remember.. I am trying to go back.. way way way back to see if I do remember you.. I am closing both eyes.. Both.. Nothing I can see back then.. why.. when did we ever meet before.. I am looking at Your Picture.. the Picture of YOU holding.. arms around the Empty Vase.. and I would look at the Picture.. WHEN was it that we meet.. I have No clue.. Please give me a Hint.. I feel like I am a crazy person.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU and just talking.. knowing YOU are Not going to answer back from It.. that is How crazy I am becoming because Now.. I am wondering.. when and where.. what age.. what school.. was it in the apartments.. NOT sure.. but Please tell me when because I truly want to know now.. I hate it when things are so mysterious.. I want to know.. YOU are the only one who knows that is why YOU are asking me.. what am I suppose to do and how do I say this to you if I tell YOU I don't know.. it can hurt you as much it will hurt me not knowing.. Please.. tell me.. give me a clue.. give me a Hint.. and I would put the picture face down on top of the desk.. I love YOU.. do you know that these three words Hit me.. when I did Not hear from you the past few days.. the Word I love you came into my Heart when I would remember what the Doctor Told me.. he told me something that YOU have not mentioned about and I just wanted to tell YOU this from my Heart.. that I love YOU.. and all I think of YOU.. YOU be in my Mind.. YOU kept on being on my Heart and ON my Mind.. Why can't I just erase you Off my Mind.. I can't.. Please tell me How.. as I am looking at this Cabin Log home.. I want to remember what happened to Us.. You have left a Message on the Phone.. and hearing your Voice.. I would listen to Your Voice.. stop and play over and over.. trying to remember YOU.. it hurts me More than it hurts YOU because I have found another Picture.. it is YOU holding a Giant Teddy Bear.. and YOU are showing me this Peace Sign.. and it is that Smile that Get to me when I take a Look into that Picture.. where was this taken At.. How can I forget.. and YOU are Not helping me in any of this.. why can't you tell me where was it At.. I dialed YOUR number and I called YOU on the Phone.. but YOU would not pick up this Time.. I started to Beat on my Chest.. and I sat on the Floor.. Looking at this picture of YOU holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. I have the first Picture on the first Room.. and there is an Empty vase in the second Room.. and I found this Picture on the second Room.. when I lifted UP the Empty Vase.. this picture was underneath it.. I remember buying this Home.. but I do not know who it was that was selling me this Home.. Just love the Wood areas and far from the city side of Life.. just wanted to live this quiet life until I heard your Voice.. and it was YOU who were thanking me purchasing this Home.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to meet YOU.. but YOU told me that it is Not the right TIME.. I remember walking into this Log Cabin Home.. the House was empty.. but there was this scent.. this smell of a perfume when I went into this Empty house.. this Empty home.. did Not know where the smell came from.. I would walk Out of the House.. looking around.. I saw no one.. but this Smell.. where does this soft smell of scent came from.. Is it that my memories are coming back slowly because I think I smelled this scent before.. I am trying to remember this smell but I know that I knew this smell.. Was it YOU who came to this Empty Home before I came.. I am wanting to Know.. so much questions going through my Mind.. I want answers.. when I first Unlocked the Door to enter.. the Smell Hit me like the thin air of cold Icy air.. it hit me in such a massive wave.. I know that someone had to be here.. because I heard that It was a New Home.. or was It Not.. does this Home belong to YOU.. or was it Mine in the past.. Please tell me something because I would like to know.. I remember after leaving the empty Home.. I would take a Long walk a long walk alone.. I was thinking about YOU.. because I heard Your Voice.. How excited Your Voice were because I bought this Home.. as I heard YOUR voice after leaving on the Message.. I would be walking.. holding the Phone in my Hand.. Placing the Speaker close to my ear.. I loved hearing your Voice.. wondering How do you Look on the Other side.. wishing can I meet YOU too.. as the Cold Breeze Hits into the Dark night.. I would see the MOON appear before Me.. snow on the Floor.. and I kept on walking.. playing to Listen to your Voice.. Is there a way I can speak back to YOU.. is there a way I can call the Number and tell YOU what My Heart truly thinks of Your Voice.. of course I did Not see your picture around this TIME.. it was the first day after I came Out of the Hospital.. waking UP to a Coma.. but the Doctor telling me that I am good to go.. that I can walk well.. leaving the Hospital I went straight to the New Home.. which I was surprised of getting a Home in the first place.. a message and a Picture came on the Phone.. with the direction to the Location.. and I took the taxi and the man drove me there.. with the key in my hands.. I think the Doctor knew something but He did Not tell me anything.. just gave me the keys to the new Home.. I don't remember when I bought this House.. that is why I feel so strange walking into this New Home.. I am looking at the walls of the Room.. the second room I am standing.. my hand touch the wall.. I don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to say about this situation.. I feel so Lost and so confused because I am standing in a new Home.. but I don't remember any one of this.. I would look at the Phone.. and I am looking at your Picture YOU send me.. and asking me DO I remember YOU.. It hurts Me.. But YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Lovely.. why are YOU sticking around towards a man who has lost everything.. I don't even remember right Now.. as the Doctor gave me the Keys to the new House.. He tells me something before HE let me go.. that there was someone who was here with me.. when I was laying on the Bed.. In the Coma.. for many days.. there was this One woman who came.. and YOU sat next to me while I was sleeping for a long time.. the Doctor said that I may Not wake UP.. but Only Time will tell but YOU came next to me.. and Would Hold my Hand.. and would come to spend next with me during the long nights.. and that when He.. the doctor comes to check.. YOU would be sleeping next to me holding my hands.. the Doctor looks over.. and sees tears rolling down my eyes.. and I think it is because of YOU I just could not GO.. I wanted to go.. go somewhere far.. but it was Your hands the doctor saw and How YOU kept on coming by my side.. until the Good news came that I was waking UP slowly from this Long sleep of COMA.. that is when the Doctor told me YOU came.. every night.. holding my hands and slept next to me.. and My tears.. I kept on crying because I wanted to GO.. I wanted YOU to let me go BUT your Hands would Not let me go.. Your TOUCH.. your hands which Hold my Hand tight and say YOU can't let me go.. I remember the day my eyes opened.. I was Not sure where I was.. of course it was that Accident.. and I would asked the Doctor.. what had happened to Me.. and How did I get here in this Bed.. the Doctor says.. it was a hit and run.. but I survived that crash which could of ended my life.. someone was drunk and hit the Car.. and He ran with his car.. and the Doctor showed me the Picture of my car which was crushed into pieces.. and I know that I have an Angel who was On my side.. that Night.. YOU came after the Police saw Your Picture on the Phone.. YOU were on the front of the screen.. and the doctor tells YOU the News.. that a big damage to my Head caused me to Loss some memories.. Maybe never I will remember YOU.. after I heard this from the Doctor showing me the picture of my Brain damage.. I cried.. I won't remember the Angel who was standing next to Me.. Holding my Hands when I was laying asleep.. I can this Happen to Me.. How can this One accident causes so much Pain in my Heart.. I want to remember YOU.. and I remember looking at the Phone.. which the Doctor gave to Me.. the front cover of the screen.. Your Picture was there and I would take a Look.. and I would say.. I don't remember YOU.. who is this person.. and It broke my Heart.. But has to be someone very special for to be in the cover of the screen.. the Doctor looks at me and tells me.. the One who was holding Your hands when I was asleep in the COMA.. it was YOU my Angel who came.. when I wanted to Go.. It was just too hard to stay alive.. I wanted to rest.. I wanted to go.. But Your Hands.. it was Your Touch.. your Faith that brought me back to where I can breathe Now.. and When I heard this from the Doctor.. I would cry looking at the Picture of YOU.. my Angel.. why can't I remember the Angel who stood by my side.. YOU could of ran too.. Just like I got Hit.. and some one ran.. even when YOU heard that I have this brain damage.. when didn't YOU ran with that.. as I sat there.. listening to the doctor.. which It was HIM who saw all these things.. and wanted to tell me that I have an angel

Situation.. it was YOU who was there.. and I wanted to say.. I love YOU.. even though I may Not remember YOU yet.. I still love YOU because I heard what you have did when I was left alone for the fight of my life in COMA.. as I am in the Second ROOM.. in this New Home.. I am looking at the new Picture I found.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. with a Big SMILE showing me the Peace Sign.. as I would look at the Phone.. I would press the Play to Hear your Voice.. it has been few days since you called me and left me the Voice Message.. I am wondering.. where are YOU at.. YOU told me that YOU are going to be calling me SOON.. if few days has passed by.. can I call YOU.. so I can hear YOUR voice.. I wanted to tell YOU that I love YOU.. SO.. what would you do if I call YOU.. and as I would look at the Empty Vase.. I know that I want to put something.. and I want to show YOU what I put into this Empty Vase.. what should I put so that I can show YOU.. can I put Your Heart inside this Empty Vase.. and I can take a Picture with the Camera on this Phone.. so that I can send it to YOU.. will you let me have Your Heart so that I can Put inside this Empty Vase.. I will show YOU a KISS on the Empty Vase.. my lips pressing on the Vase and Your Heart inside this Vase.. I will take a Picture on the side of it.. to Show YOU.. How much I love YOU by showing YOU that I love Your Heart.. I want your Heart close to me.. as much as my Lips kisses your Heart.. so Please consider.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I would press the Play button and I would hear your Voice again.. and I would sit on the Floor.. putting the Phone Speaker close to my ear to hear Your Voice.. it was a message You left few days ago.. but when Can I hear Your New voice Now.. I want to hear a new message coming from You.. I miss your Voice.. so will you pick up the Phone if I call YOU.. as I would send YOU a text message and I would send it to Your Number.. and I would sit and wait for Your response on the Other side.. and I get a Message.. a written text message back from YOU.. just did Not think you would answer back so quickly.. and I would call.. dial UP your number and let it ring.. few times the ring I would hear.. and I hear Your Voice.. and I would say to YOU.. I been thinking about the Day I woke UP.. waking UP from the Hospital.. and I would hear what the Doctor says to me.. that I wanted to say you are my Angel.. I wish that I can be an angel Like YOU.. so that I can be the One to make YOU smile More.. would you let me be an Angel for just One Day.. of course If you are wondering.. DO I remember YOU.. to be honest.. I am still lost.. Unable to remember YOU.. but I wanted to ask YOU something.. can YOU Please help me to Know YOU.. to find the Memory back of YOU.. will you please show me How to remember so that I can just love YOU the way YOU should be loved.. and I would pause.. and I don't hear any word from YOU.. but I do hear YOU saying.. Yes.. YOU were there at the Hospital and it was YOU who was next to Me.. but of course.. I needed to remember YOU first so that YOU can tell me More.. and it keeps on hurting Me.. it keeps on hurting me because I do want to remember.. I want to know what has happened.. about everything.. But.. if YOU are not going to help me.. How am I suppose to Know.. Please tell me.. please Help me so that I can feel what real Love.. what true Love is all about.. my Heart is beating fast whenever I would listen and hear your Voice.. but I want to love YOU and say it Like I mean it because I know that I do love YOU.. that is why I am asking YOU to help me to find the way.. so that I can be in your Heart.. and YOU in my Heart as I remember everything about us.. I am looking at your Picture.. looking at you smiling.. I just wish I can remember this Place.. I am wondering.. who is the One who has taken this Picture.. I know that someone had to stand on the Other side.. and had to look through the lens of the camera.. and just focusing on YOU.. and had to click to take that picture.. as I am in the second room.. looking at the Vase.. the empty Vase.. and looking at your picture.. I wish that It was me.. was it me who was standing on the Other side.. was it really me?? YOU told me that I was with YOU.. and that YOU asking me if I remember any of all these things.. why is it so Hard.. it is so difficult on my part because I want to go back and remember all of these things that has happened.. but the More I am trying to think about YOU.. the more it seems harder to remember these times.. and the Voice.. Your voice I hear when I am talking to you on the Phone.. when YOU call me.. and I would answer.. I am wondering How did I get into this House.. because I just don't remember.. I even saw few people walking in.. the Movers with their truck.. putting all kinds of things into this House.. how did these people got here.. I have so much questions.. but I know that it is you who are putting all these things through.. I am standing in the second room.. looking at your picture.. the only One thing that I can look through.. but I just want to remember YOU.. How did we meet.. How did I fall in love with YOU.. what happened.. I know that YOU told me I got into the car wreck.. could of died in the accident but I guess just the Life that is still in me.. I should be truly thankful to be even alive.. as I am looking at your picture.. I can hear The Phone ringing.. and I see your Picture I have put on the Phone.. and it shows me who is calling me.. as I would pick up the Phone.. putting against my ear to listen to Your Voice.. I wonder.. are you ever going to show UP.. are you going to stop by to visit me.. can you please Help me to remember more about YOU.. because YOU are still a mystery to Me.. I needs to know more.. I needs to ask More.. I want to find out more about YOU.. but.. I know that YOU don't say too much.. why are you being like this to me.. YOU are the one who calls me.. but never say too much.. WHY.. Please tell me what is holding you back to say.. I know that YOU want to say something.. please tell me.. Please tell me because I too have an ear to hear your words.. only if YOU can share and express what is deep in your Heart.. I really wants to know.. and I am looking at another Picture.. this Picture is a Heart.. a red Heart.. why did YOU place this Picture next to Your Picture.. what does this Heart Picture means.. what are you trying to tell me.. Are you telling me that YOU love a Heart.. or trying to tell me that YOU have a Heart.. or are you asking me DO I have a Heart or do I love a Heart.. I must know why.. why put it next to your Picture on the second room.. as I am looking at the two picture on top of the desk.. my hand holding the Phone.. I can hear the breathing.. can I ask YOU something.. WHY is there a picture of A Heart.. who has taken this Picture and why did it be placed in this Desk and I would hear you say.. that I would Love the Heart.. and I am standing here.. with a Question Mark.. that I love a Heart.. does that Means it was me who has taken this Picture.. I know that the first room.. it has a Bed and on the top of the Bed.. I saw a Heart.. it was a pillow Heart.. and It was Me who has taken that picture.. but why can't I remember.. I don't remember taken any picture.. and I would think back.. a little flash back.. I see you sitting on the Top of the Bed.. your arms holding around the Red Heart Pillow.. and I would hear you even tell me the same thing on the Phone.. that one night.. I came into the first room.. and YOU were sitting down on the top of the Bed.. and I would stand and I would watch YOU.. your Arms around the Red Heart.. telling me that YOU love red Heart.. and would smile as you would squeeze it.. and YOU put on the bed next to YOU.. and I would walk closer.. hands holding the camera.. and I would put my eye close to the Lens of the Camera and ZOOM closer.. and snap Shot taking a picture.. and as I put the camera down.. I would turn to look at YOU and I would say.. I want this Heart.. But I want your Heart like this.. can I please have your Heart.. would you please give me YOUR HEART because I truly need it.. I want to have It.. Have your Heart.. and I would see you smile as I would turn to walk away from the first room.. as I am standing still in the Second ROOM.. I am able to get or catch a glimpse.. I think little by little.. things are coming that I am beginning to see something.. Still I can't remember but the little pieces of puzzle like.. I feel like YOU are truly helping me to find YOU back to my Heart.. I know that I loved YOU once that is before the Car accident.. I still can feel inside that I still love YOU.. when YOU are telling me these things on the Phone.. YOU are helping me because without YOU.. How can I know.. it is what YOU know that is bringing things back.. but slowly it is taking a long time.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. only YOU can bring my Heart to be alive.. Only YOU can help me to love YOU once again because I never stopped loving YOU.. as I would turn away.. my Hand holding the Picture of the Heart.. the red Heart.. I would walk out of the second room.. I wonder if I can see Your Heart.. I want to know the color of Your Heart.. would you let me see the color of the Heart.. does it look like this Heart.. the red Heart in the picture.. would you let me see the Color of Your Heart.. because I love this red Heart.. as I would walk out the front door.. it is very cold outside.. and I am standing.. with the Jacket on.. I walk to the front.. LOOKING at the flurry of snows falling from the sky.. and my Hand.. holding the picture of the Red Heart.. I would lift up my arm.. and I can see the Picture.. I lift to see the Red Heart in the Photo.. I want to see your Heart.. I want to touch Your Heart.. I want to know and want to see the color

Myself if I can just ask YOU.. But I did end UP asking YOU.. YOU told me that YOU are NOT going to give me any answers because it is ALL UP to me to figure that OUT.. WHY would you put this Vase.. an empty Vase in this room.. why not in the first room.. why the second ROOM.. have I been here before.. so much un answered questions I must know.. But YOU would not tell me.. as I am looking next to the Vase.. I put the Picture Frame next.. beside it.. and ALL I am looking at is Your Beautiful Face.. Your Smile.. how this same Vase sitting on top of Your Lap.. with a SUN FLOWER inside.. I want to know.. when and where.. that Couch is in the living room of this House.. I just can't remember.. I want to remember.. why don't you call me.. I don't want to call YOU because YOU are going to wonder do I remember anything yet.. because right Now.. I just don't remember anything at all.. but I do wish I knew.. I wish I know now.. but right Now.. all I can think of is when and where.. I know that I must loved YOU.. the more I keep on looking at the picture in the picture frame.. I want to love YOU more.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. but How.. How can I tell YOU that I love you if I don't remember but my Heart is burning within me to tell YOU that I do.. only thing that I want to tell YOU.. I do still love YOU.. but I don't think you would believe anything at all.. because YOU do know that I don't remember.. but something in me tells me that I do.. How am I suppose to express this Love.. the word and to transfer the word to YOU.. that Even though I may not remember.. and has a memory loss.. something keeps on telling me that I do still.. that YOU did not lose any hope because I never stopped loving YOU.. WOULD YOU believe me.. I want YOU to believe these words of mine.. but what If YOU don't.. you may think that I am lying just to make YOU feel good at the moment.. but.. if I loved YOU once.. and YOU knew that I loved YOU a lot.. or More.. that Love will never just leave without a trace.. I know that if I loved YOU.. I will never stop loving YOU.. but.. would YOU believe in this truth.. would you believe me at all.. I am afraid that YOU would Not believe because I am at lost.. BUT Please.. know that I never stopped loving YOU.. YOU are only going to hurt me if YOU just don't believe my words because ALL I can say is that I do.. Thinking about WHY am I here.. and why am I looking at this Empty Vase.. what am I suppose to do with this Empty Vase.. I did received the Note in the first room.. and also got the chance to look at you through the Picture you have left behind.. I know that I am not suppose to have this Picture.. but why do MY hand keeps on holding onto the picture for.. I am trying to leave the Picture behind.. I should of left it in the first room.. on the top of the desk.. but for some reason.. My hand just could NOT let go.. it grabbed onto the Picture.. telling myself.. Just let it go.. I needs to let it go but My Heart says.. telling my Mind.. I know my hand will not let your picture go.. so I have decided to take the Picture with me to the second room.. I am standing here by another Desk.. Now I am very confused about this desk.. why does it look a like.. is it the same desk because I did NOT buy any desk.. I do remember.. when I was talking to YOU on the Phone.. YOU have mention to me that YOU are leaving something behind.. and I am wondering.. if it belongs to YOU.. why don't you just take it with YOU.. why do you want to leave something behind.. and if it is something precious.. something precious to YOU.. I do truly understand that IF YOU MUST need to take it.. Please take it with YOU.. it won't hurt me or bother me if YOU DO.. but.. listening to your Voice on the Other line.. YOU telling me that IT is a bonus for buying.. purchasing this Lovely home.. so I did tell YOU.. thank YOU.. if it is a gift from YOUR Heart to me.. then Yes.. I will receive it.. I will take this gift.. of course YOU never told me that it is going to be two desks.. a Picture with a Note.. and an empty Vase.. But.. I want to know.. what is the Use of this Empty Vase.. why did you not put a note what comes with this Empty Vase.. am I suppose to put flowers inside this Vase.. but it has half filled water.. so.. I guess you should of told me because.. I am looking at this Vase.. not completely empty but has half filled waters.. so I am looking at the CELL PHONE and I do dial your Number.. and I am waiting as I am hearing it ring.. I wait and I hear a Hello on the Other side.. and I tell YOU.. I am the One who just bought this Log Cabin Home from YOU.. and just wanted to ask YOU one simple question.. there are two desks.. one each in the room.. I have a picture of YOU.. am I suppose to have it.. can I please have this Picture because NOW I am the New Home Owner.. the Other Question is this.. what am I suppose to do with the Empty Vase.. it is half filled.. and I am waiting for you to answer.. and I hear your voice telling me.. It was not YOU who put the two desks.. and Yes.. the Picture is Yours.. and the Vase.. Not sure what that is.. but the vase Means Love.. I am just standing there.. thinking.. the Vase means Love.. what does that Means if it is Love.. YOU know that I am Not sure what YOU are talking about.. and I am waiting for YOU to answer.. and I don't hear anything.. and I hear.. DO I not remember.. I pause thinking.. remember what?? am I suppose to remember something.. and I hear.. I don't remember YOU.. and the Phone hangs UP.. It made me jump because you asked me do I remember YOU.. which am I suppose to remember some one and I am thinking.. I am holding a Picture of YOU In my hand.. why is it so hard for me to Let go of Your Picture.. and YOU are the One who left the Picture for me to see it.. and I am thinking.. was I suppose to stand still until I remember you.. until I do know who YOU are.. and then I was suppose to call YOU on the Phone to tell YOU that NOW I know.. and with this Vase.. I know that it must means something.. YOU have left it behind so that I can remember.. But.. why do I feel like my Mind is stuck.. I want to know.. I want to remember.. if YOU are telling me that this Vase means Love.. it has to do with me and this Empty half water vase.. I am suppose to know YOU.. the person YOU.. the One I am looking at this Picture.. I can't remember though.. on the Note it did say I got into an accident.. I was hit by a car so I must went to the Hospital and Blacked Out.. because I was told that some of the memories I won't remember.. How can I lost YOU.. How can I lose someone like you.. and I am looking at the Picture.. I was close to face my own death.. I do remember laying on the Hospital bed.. one of the doctors would say that I be calling Out your name.. of course the Doctor did Not know who I was calling Out too.. But I do remember when I woke UP from the coma.. the Doctor tells me some one came to visit me.. and was crying while I was sleeping.. in a deep coma.. holding my hand.. asking the doctor to save me.. to save my life and begging the doctor.. the doctors all came to help out.. of course the doctor who was the main care taker told YOU.. that I am going to have a loss of memory and I would not remember much.. I do remember sitting UP on the Hospital Bed.. the doctor tells Me.. I was very close to death.. and he did all he can and for some reason.. I would be calling out your Name.. and that is HOW I got UP.. the doctor would look at me asking me.. who is the lady I keep on calling out too.. I was saying a Name.. but I sat there just puzzled.. a NAME?? the doctor said.. because of her Name I was able to get UP.. able to open my eyes.. able to come back to Life.. to breathe again.. if I did not call Out your Name.. I think what this doctor means.. I would of been dead.. I am wondering.. the Name.. I keep on calling Out your Name.. for the longest.. I am here trying to figure OUT who you are.. because I know that I loved YOU.. I keep on looking at your picture and I would say to the Picture.. Is your name I LOVE YOU.. because that is the only Name I can think of.. to tell you from my Heart How much I love you.. what am I suppose to say.. I want to know too.. but I am going through some hard times and that part is trying to figure OUT about Us.. this mystery about what happened.. I want to know because I came to this New Home.. with two desks.. YOU told me that it was not Yours.. then whose desks are these if it is Not Yours.. if I bought this Home from YOU.. how come the desks are here.. and it looks so familiar too me.. as I would look at the vase.. I am not sure if I should keep this.. the Phone rings and I pick it UP.. and I hear your voice.. it feels like I heard your voice before.. I think even before I called to buy this New Home.. from the Log Cabin house.. and I hear you asking me do I remember.. and I am standing here in the second room.. I want to remember.. But.. it is even harder for me because I do not remember.. only YOU can help me to remember because I sure have no clue.. I have No idea at this point.. please help me to remember YOU.. I want to remember.. can I ask YOU this.. DID I love YOU very much.. Is it me who loved YOU.. can you please tell me the answer and I hear.. Yes.. that I loved YOU.. and My Heart starts to pound hard.. I am thinking.. then why can't I remember YOU if I loved YOU so Much.. but One thing for sure is this.. My hand can't put your Picture down.. I feel like I want to cry because I keep on holding to Your Picture.. what am I suppose to do.. that is why I am asking YOU.. if I loved YOU.. I feel something in my Heart.. and How about this.. can I throw this Vase away.. since I don't know what is the use for.. what am I suppose to do.. put fish.. How about goldfish inside.. I don't even like fish.. and I hear your voice.. it is Love.. and I should not get rid of it because in due time YOU